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It's only like the fourth week (or something) and I am tired of being here. Maybe that's the trouble with moving into the same place you just lived in, it just feels like a continuation. The monotony of everything is getting to me... classess, homework and the meals! Oh my how I hate the meals. Why did I have to be born so picky?? Why must I hate corn and peas and potatoes (unless they're in chip or french fry form)??? Why don't I like fish? Or pork? I'm really tired of going to sleep hungry. I pay approximately $9 a meal, I should not leave unsatisfied!

Maybe it's just because I haven't been getting enough sleep lately and that's made me grumpy, whatever it is I am tired of being unpleasant to be around.

Shashi, one of the main functions of walksafe is to walk people back from class. We're there to make sure people feel safe in their everyday life.

There is a party tonight, I will be attending and I will hopefully be having a good time. I guess that is all for now.

WalkSafing

I am currently walksafing. I have realized that perhaps I have never explained what goes on.

My shift starts at 7:00 on Tuesday nights. We start at the U of T campus police department. From there we get put into teams of two (each team always has at least one girl). We get coats and windbreakers. We get told of any walks that were prearranged for the night then we set out. We basically walk around campus for five hours (shift ends at midnight). We wander around doing 'building checks' and letting the police know where we are every half hour. If a call comes in to request a walk dispatch dispatches one of the teams and we walk them to where they need to go.

Tonight's building checks have consited of:
Syd Smith: Where I read the latest issue of our campus newspaper.
Gerstein Library: Where I checked my email and my walk partner got movie reviews for the movie he wants to see on Sat.
Pita Pit: Ok technically this was while we were on break, but pita pit was damn safe while we were there. I did get to find out that I don't like onions.
Hart House: Where I read this month's issue of Time Magazine. Does Time actually claim to be a hard hitting news magazine? Cause it's not.
WoodsWoorth residence: Where I fell asleep by accident on the common room couch.
Robarts Library: Where I am currently blogging.

I know this sounds like crap but we are doing an actual job. We keep our eyes open for suspicious stuff, for example last week one of the walksafers broke up a fight. And we also act as a walking billboard for the walksafer service. We also provide directions for people... that's right, I'm out giving directions to people, and they're actually good directions.

In other news, I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but Angus and I are heading to Jon Stewart on October 7th. He's doing stand up at Massey Hall. The event, I can only assume, will be the pinnacle of my life.

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I am off to my physilogical psych class. It's all about the workings of the brains, axons and dendrites and the like. After that is yoga. Yoga is quite relaxing but then all my muscles are pulled. Then dinner, then walksafe. I'm not sure if I can keep doing yoga all year, because it means that from about 1:40-midnight I'm not getting any homework done on Tuesdays. I have a wednesday morning class that I don't think I'll be able to do the readings for. Meh, I'll just see if it works out and stop going if I have to.

I finished an assignment for tomorrow's soc of language class. It's supposed to be about a moment where the intracacies of language touched my soul. I wrote about doing crosswords puzzles with Janet in physics class.

Rez life continues to be interesting. It seems we have picked up where we left off last year, with secrets and the telling of those secrets. And of course there are old animosities that are still floating around. I appear to have been flagged as neutral ground, so I get info. from all sides. I have no desire to tell these secrets because the shit is disturbed enough around here.

I still can't decide if I can do this literacy program thing (where I help adults learn to read). I'm not sure I will have enough time for everything.

bah, I have to get to class.

exhausted

Today seemed like a very long day. I was up till 4 last night just chatting with a girl who lives on my floor. I was very tired today, and grumpy. So I avoided most public involvement. I am off to bed now. so sleepy.

Sleepy

I am so sleepy. Yet I am blogging.

Things have been going great. Classes are good. Walksafe is amazing! Did I mention I signed up for pilates? So exciting. It starts in October.

So much news, yet so sleepy. Just know that I am alive and quite happy.

Walk Safe!

I walksafed! It was great. We had one call. We walked her good. I get a police notebook, and a radio, and a blue jacket, and id! And I met a lot of cops. And it was cool. We walked a girl across campus. My partner's name was Vlad. He was quite nice. He is also in crim.

A very exciting night. Now my legs hurt so much.

Good night!

First Class Done

The staff party was fantasic. There was dancing and drinking. The best part was the dancing. Who knew I would love dancing?

Last night I had Perception (psychology). It went for the full three hours, and apparently it always will. It was quite interesting, most of class was spent debunking Naive Realism. The last hour really dragged because we were talking about refraction and lenses and a whole bunch of other angle related crap.

Soon I am off to Physiol. Psy. I don't even remember what Physiol is a short form for. It's also three hours.

Tonight I WalkSafe!!! I will be in charge of the safety and securtity of someone. I'm really excited, although I have no idea what it's going to be like.

I'm also hoping to do this literacy program thingy with the libraries. Where I help someone learn to read. Then maybe a class at the University Gym.

Anyway, I am off, to learn, to grow, to nap.

Frosh week update

OK so frosh week not as scary as expected. Actually it's been quite good.

I'm a little sniffly right now with a cold, or maybe alergies. But the headache I have seems to be cold related.

I'm working on redecorating my room. I covered my bulletin board with cool wrapping paper so now it's all artsy and fun.

Anybody else have any room decorating ideas? I hope to hit poster sales next week, but I want something big and colorful.

I've reunited with a lot of old friends. I've gone out a few times. Oh! White Russians and Black Russians (they are drinks). They are most delicious! White Russians are just chocolate milk. That's it. So delicious.

Tomorrow is a staff party. In honour of someone I don't really like. But on the upside I like everyone else, and everyone else will be there so... PARTY!.

moving in

I thrive on comfort and routine. Big chunks of undefined time are frightening to me. I know this does not make sense, because a couple months from now, when everything is running at full steam, I will be begging for some extended free time. But right now Frosh week looms at me terrifylingly empty. It's causing a free floating anxiety. I move in tomorrow and am quite nervous.

My anxiety sort of multiplies on itself because I focus on it and that makes everything worse.

Logic dictates that things will go well. And even if they don't go well, they won't be awful.

OK so the plan is to focus on not freaking out.

Dollar Store Fun

My nice analog watch broke (so I'm back to digital) so I went to Winners to see if they had any watches. I wandered the whole store to see if there were any watches and I couldn't find any. I asked one of the counter staff if they had watches and she said; "Sometimes...". Me: "Um..... is now one of those times?" "I don't think so."

So no watches at Winners so no watch for me today.

I went to the Dollar store today and discovered lots of helpful stuff. I picked up a new glass in which to hold my toothbrush, two sets of double picture frames and three roles of wrapping paper for a project I'm starting. All of this was quite exciting. The only downside was that I had rode my bike to this shopping spree and then had to figure out a way to ride home with it all.

Anyway very succesful.

WalkSafe

I'm hoping to be a WalkSafe member this year. Basically I would walk people home and stuff. The WalkSafe guy doesn't come back until September 1st so then hopefully I will have an interview. I now have little post it notes all over my desktop that say WalkSafe! It looks like I'm trying to remind myself to be careful while walking.

I want to be very involved this year so hopefully I will be accepted for the walksafe position. I think I will also join a club on top of that.

On a side note, if any of you enjoy Dean Koontz please read his book Odd Thomas. The book is phenomenal.

I complain nnnnnow

So I am about to complain, for all those of you who don't want to read about me complaining you can skip this entry.

Mostly I'm just trying to sort stuff out and I figure writing it out might help.

I seem not to have enough time next week. I have promised a few people that I will see them and I don't know when to fit it all in. I'm also going away with my parents for two days. Plus work. I also have to fit in an interview for WalkSafe at school. Which means going all the way to school and back. All on a day I will probably have to work.

So to sum up I am frustrated.

Mikey's Home!

Mikey got home on Saturday! He is home for the week. There will be some good mikeyness this week.

I sadly did not get to see much of Mikey on Saturday, I worked all day and came home and fell asleep at about 9:30. I was exhausted and grumpy.

On Friday night I went to my first concert ever! (excluding Sharon Lois and Bram, and of course the gold band ones). Green Day!!! It was amazing. OK so I did not enjoy the first two bands (AntiFlag and Jimmy Eat World). Jimmy Eat World was ok, but AntiFlag is far from my favourite. Mind you I am not their target audience, I am not looking to change the world through a violent revlotion that will eliminate the government, I am looking to change the world with hugs, and perhaps free coupons to eat at Arby's.

There were beach balls and the concert and of course lighters and swaying. I wanted to crowd surf but it seemed like possibly a bad idea. Green Day was excellent live, they interacted with the audience beautifully.

I had lots of fun at my first concert.

Tonight I will be seeing Heather! Yay!

Supper is ready!

Mr. Henry and Fear Factor

Jocelyn, Heather, Daley, my parents and I all went to music in the park tonight. We watched the Black Board Blues Band! They were fantastic. Classics and really great music. It was a really great night. My Dad bought the CD. I love nights like that.

I love Fear Factor! And Amercia's Most Funniest Home Videos and crappy reality tv. I will admit it. I find it all fabulous and great. I love watching shows like Televisions Greatest Moments. I love the garbage that is just there to make you laugh. Or in the case of Fear Factor, make you gag.

Rez

In response to Janet's inquiring mind, I am living in rez again. I am living in the same room actually. Perhaps this was a bad idea. Perhaps I need change. A chance to flex and stretch. But not much use pontificating on this idea. I have a room, assignments are done. I'm living where I am and it has lots of upsides. I'm in the perfect place in the hall. Close to the bathrooms but far away enough that they're no noisy. Close to the common room but far away enough that I don't hear it. AND right next to the full length mirror in the hall.

I hope you're all well. Welcome home those of you who have freshly arrived.

Good night all.

Clutter and Time

My room is so cluttered. It's been cluttered all summer. It seems I can't move anything without other stuff falling over. I just haven't had a chance to clean it out.

It seems I don't have enough time for everything. I have a lot to finish doing before I'm ready for school. I don't seem to have enough time to see everybody I want to see. And I don't seem to have enough time for just me. Plus there's working. Lots and lots of working.

On a lighter note, I've reformatted my computer!!! With a little help from Angus (what the hell is a partition?) my computer is reborn. OK not completely reborn but it's definetly doing better. I installed my printer today! Yay!

Goodnight

Goodnight house

Goodnight thoughts

Goodnight noise

Goodnight eyes

Goodnight beauty

Goodnight fear

Goodnight everyone sleep tight.

I don't Feel Very Good

Being angry doesn't phsycially agree with me. I don't like this at all. I don't know if I have done the right thing or not. I don't mean the right, good and honest moral thing. I mean I don't know if I 've done the right thing for me. To swallow all this anger can't be good. But actually letting it out on it's cause does not seem to have benefits. I was hurt and I feel betrayed but I don't think that telling the person will actually have any benefit. I don't want to be involved in any games or backstabbing. I just want this gone because I hate what it's doing to my stomach.

Movies!

I have seen many movies recently. What follows is a run down of these movies.

Miss Congenialty 2 (ok so I can't spell congeniality but you get the idea)
This movie was hilarious. I loved every part of it, except at the end with this really cheesy rescue seen. Anyway it was great. And stuck true to the old movie as well. I give this movie 8 stars (on a scale of 5).

Little Black Book.
This movie was great. It was not your classic romantic comedy that every said it was. It was heartwarming and touching. And It contained the words "You can't corner the Midget Market!". This movie gets 6 stars.

The Island.
When I asked Randeep and Jon what this movie was about they said; "Natalie Portman". It was also about clones. It turned out to be a really good movie. Filled with twists and of course, the occasional turn. This movie will not win an oscar though, I think once you hit the two car chase mark you aren't allowed to win an oscar. I give this movie 5 stars.

Charlie and The Chocolate Factory.
This movie was good. It's best moment was the Cannabilism line. It had some plot differences from the original and from the book. The oompa loompas were freaky because the actor had been in the 9th season of X-Files as this body jumping creature, where he'd live inside you and you'd be dead but nobody would know because you still could move and stuff. Then when the autopsy is performed (after the body snatcher leaves) Scully says; "This person has been dead for a week!" So that made the oompa loompas all creepy. Oh! and they didn't sing; "Oompa loompa dopity do, we've got another riddle for you". This was dissappointing. I still prefer Gene Wilder's Willy Wonka. I give this movie 5 stars.

Life Aquatic
This movie had the slowest start ever. OK not ever, but damn was it slow.
The movie did pick up. It was hilarious in a dead pan sort of way. "Ok Interns lets see some Zisou hussle!"and other such hilarious moments. The movie was not nearly has hilarious as the commercials made it out to be. If you're looking for a hilarious Bill Murry movie watch Scrooged instead. This movie gets 4 stars.

Unbreakable.
I had seen this movie before a long time ago in theaters. I had hated it the moment after it was over. But it grew on me and eventualy I really liked it. I watched it with Peter and Angus. The second viewing was good. Odd plot and weird unexpected tie in with comic books. On the whole an ok movie, could have used more hilarity. This movie gets only 4 stars.

Triplets of Bellville.
This was an animated movie with limited script. It was quite hilarious and enjoyable. I can't think of much else to say about this movie other than it earns 5 stars.

Dead Man (or something like that)
I can't quite remember if that's the real title of this movie. Quite frankly it's not important because I don't want to remember anything about this movie. This movie was awful. It had Johnny Depp in it but that didn't even save it. It barely had a plot, and the thin waif of a plot it did have was horribly borring. I did not even finish watching this movie. I got an hour into it hoping it would go somewhere, I realized it wasn't going to so I stopped watching it. It reminded me of About Schmidt, a movie which I also disliked. This movie gets no stars! That's right not even a pity star!

OK so that is all my recent movie watching.

T.O.D.

When is it appropriate to call time of death on a friendship?

Most friendships just end naturally, you drift apart and just don't talk anymore.

There are friendships that end in fights. But from TV to Ann Landers most mediums send the message that the friendship is more important than the fight. Burrying the hatchet will leave you with a friendship to last a lifetime. Leaving that hatchet to loiter in the sun will leave you with a lifetime of regret. With all this helpful advice it would seem that no matter the cause of the blowout friends should stay friends forever.

Relationships break up. There is almost invariably a moment that can be cited as the official break up. While often it is argued that the relationship was emotionally over a long time previous to the offical T.O.D. there is usually a point that can be said without question that the relationship is done.

Friendships rarely part with such precision.

What if a relationship is toxic? Dissappointing? Is it possible to call an end to a friendship without being labeled as someone callous?

The real question of this entry I guess is, did I use callous in the right context? Did I even spell it right? Damn my laziness. Dictionary.com is not that far away and yet callous (sic???) remains unchecked.