Chopstickery

On Friday I ate Japanese food and managed to use chopsticks the whole time! I am insanely proud of this fact. And I tried a lot of new stuff. I am liking this trying new stuff thing. I also got to drive a go cart for the first time ever. It was terrifying at first, but once I realized that I wouldn't die if I was hit, it got cool. I had a great time but I don't think this will become a habit. Very hard to read books while driving a go kart.

I'm thinking of making crepes this week, but I don't really want to go out and buy whip cream. But I have nuttella... maybe I will make rissotto.

I had an awesomely lazy day today. I got a lot of reading done today, which was great. Why did I never manage to do that while in school?

Links

Just noticed that Shashi changed my name to Christine on her blog. Weird.

Titles are hard to think of!

I fenced last night and a girl I fence with regularly (but who has been off because of knee problems) said that I had made some distinct progress! Which is awesome, because I have been trying harder!

There are 3 tournaments in April, but schedule wise I can't make it to any of them. The one I really want to go to is on the same day as a close family friend's birthday party, so that blows. I think tonight I will have to choose one and then schedule around that.

This Saturday, other than lunch with my brother and Yvonne, I have to go to the mall because the boots I bought at the start of February have a whole in them. This is very sucky because I spent an a lot on them so Iwould finnnaly have quality boots, instead of having to replace them every year. Now I have to see if I can return them, and what if they don't have any boots left in stock? What do I do then??

I have also been looking into buying Puma shoes, but their website is horribly un-navigatable.

Today was a good day! Maybe because I spent yesterday at the Career Centre 'Exploring my Options' so I am starting to realize that there is hope for a future. Could you take me seriously as a life coach? It was in the section I was looking in. Would people go to a 24 year old life coach? What knowledge could I possibly have? I could show people where to get on the subway so you get off at just the right spot... but only for some stops.

Sound Effects

On Friday my parents and I spent a day at a conservation area. Part of it was a tour of a created Native Canadian community. One lady who gave us a tour was so excited, and had so much knowledge about what she was telling us that she spoke in sound effects. I would love to have so much passion for something, that I could speak in sound effects.

Sometimes it feels like I will never accomplish anything. I don't even seem to have an interest in anything job like.... or any sort of passion. Actually I currently have a few passions. I shall list them:

1. Olive Oil
2. The smell of cucumbers
3. The colour light green and pale pink
4. Spring
5. Tulips
6. The idea that perhaps... maybe... I might have a future.

I feel like I am looking for inspirations.. something. But very little seems to spark anything.

Weekend

This whole weekend it has felt like summer. Heat more than warmth. I've wanted to wear tank tops and skirts. Running shoes instead of winter boots. I look forward to wandering around in the city without gloves and a coat and a scarf. I look forard to lying on the beach and reading. Drinking red wine with the windows open. Eating on patios. Warm nights, long warm nights. I love the summer.

I will buy a beach towel soon. And new running shoes that will last more than two months (Screw you payless). And I will explore restaurants in the Cheapeats book Heather gave me. Like we did today, very good food with nice atmosphere, Heather is a very good restaurant picker.

I am in love with pesto, and olive oil right now.

Subway Ride

Since daylight savings time I have been able to enjoy a different view out of the subway window (it's actually more of a monorail). I catch the end of sunrise, where things are a soft pink instead of the intense reds and oranges (which I love). I was looking at it and thought that THAT colour was dusty rose, not the horendous colour of all of my high school furninture. Then I realized that the sunrise was more of a powder pink, that was dusted on the sky, it itself was not dusty.

Morning

Last night I had a party and a couple of my friends slept over. In the morning around 5 am we had to go move my friend's car so she wouldn't get a ticket. The world was quiet and the snow was freshly plowed. As it turns out 5 am is very peaceful.

We got back to my apartment and it was very calming to know that two of my close friends were sleeping in my apartment all cozy and warm. I watched the sunrise through the window, life is good.

Two people came in my work to have a meeting with our product manager. Right as they were about to tell me who they were looking for one of my co-workers began singing happy birthday over the intercom for someone who's birthday it was that day. The two guests looked at each other, and then started singing along. One even gave a 'Cha cha cha' at the end of the song. I love people who are willing to play along.

Remembering things differently

I did not have the easiest second year in university. When I refer to second year I tend to refer to it as 'The Year My Life Imploded' even though I do not think that is the proper use of the word 'imploded'.

This evening my roommate and I were looking through pictures on her computer from that year, and I realized that it was a really really good year. Despite everything that happened, I had a great time. I met a lot of friends that I am still really close to now. It was a year that I felt like family with a lot of the people I lived with. I think from now on, I should start looking at it as the year things changed, mostly for the better.

Family Day

I am currently in love with the show 'How I met your Mother'. Mike lent me the first season and it is awesome. I suggest that everyone goes out and watches it right now.

I spent today at work, despite the famiy day nature of today. I was cleaning out files because our offices are moving buildings. Is it sad that I am very excited to set up my new desk? Cause I think it's kinda sad. Seriously, I need something a bit beyond what I currently look forward to.

Fence Fence!

Because I commute in from work I usually arrive late at fencing. Normally I come in halfway through the warm up/muscle strengthening. Whenever I join in everyone else is all worn out, so simple things like leg lifts make them groan in pain, this has the tendency to make me cocky. Today I worked out to this guy who is built, and he was exhausted, I thought that I was a total animal because I could do three push ups in the time it took him to do one. I quickly ran out of steam.

Morning Review (at night)

Since the days have been getting shorter I have noticed an interesting phenomenon. I wake up before the sunrise and go to bed before the sunset, but I never notice either happening. That has made me kind of sad for a while, to be so caught up in my scheduals and lists and thinking and drudgery that I don't notice something as simple, and as beatiful, as the sunrise.


This morning, I saw the sunrise. And it was beautiful and orange and glowed. It made me happy.

Beautiful Things

I made dinner for my roommate for two nights in a row. I made brushetta and pizza last night and tonight I made brushetta (I really like brushetta) and egg plant parmasean. It was funny on Saturday night because we were out of regular cheese, so all we had was camenbare to put on the pizza. It tasted great, but what kind of people have to settle for camenbare?

I cleaned my fish all on my own today, this was a huge step as every other time I needed someone there to spot me while doing it. This is probably because the first time I did it Freddy hopped out and landed on the counter. I was understandably paralyzed with fear and my roommate had to rescue him. I am pretty sure that I lost about 4 years of my life in that moment. Hopefully it will have been the years wherein I have a terrible hair style and look terrible in pictures.

New Years etc.

I am not doing very well with this whole post more often thing. It was a new years resolution to post more and to write in my diary more. Maybe I just need to get in the habit. I also need to work on being less intimidated by Shashi's blog. No one can equal her ability to write on anything and make it interesting.

I think my life needs both more reflection and dreaming. I am getting all caught up in the cycle of chores in life. I am accomplishing nothing but tiny goals right now, nothing long term. For example I am happy when I manage to do laundry and get it all folded and put away. But there is nothing really long term about that. What happened to my volunteering? Where is my career research? I miss looking forward to things. Looking forward to accomplishing something big. In school you could always look forward to the end of the year, and past that graduation. I had a goal then. Now it seems I am living for nothing in particular. Don't get me wrong I love living, never known anything else really, but one cannot live for the two week sheet washing rotation (on the other weeks I wash white clothes).

Getting things done

So for some reason I am in the mood to get things done today. Since returning from work here is what I have accomplished:

- Done all of my laundry
- Ripped 15 CDs to my computer.
- Balanced my cheque book (ha I do that now)
- Vacuumed my room
- Cleaned out my purse
- Cleaned out my email
- Fed the cat
- Put away my roommate vegtables

See, I am awesome. The only issue is that I have yet to make dinner. It is 10. I have not eaten yet.

I am hungry.

Western

I am heading out to London this weekend to visit Jo Mike and Ryan. I am really excited to see them. I am also really excited because now I have these new travel cases for things like makeup and toiletry stuff. I got them for Christmas from my brother's girlfriend Yvonne. The cases are really cute and I want to travel more so they should come in handy. There is this travel jewllery holder that I found online and it's really pretty and would match, but I can't legitimize buying it because I have one from a long time ago. These are the thoughts that go through my head while I'm filing.

I find that I don't post often on this blog because I always feel pressure to say something valuable. And I also find that when I start writing all my thoughts become disjointed. Perhaps if I post more my thoughts will actually flow.

Goals

I think it is time that I start solidly outlining my goals and pursuing them. Some may call these 'new years resolutions', but I want to look more long term. Career wise, and in my personal life. Perhaps I will volunteer at a food bank. Maybe volunteering would make me less self involved.

I am currently strugilling with an organizational problem, I have too many lists. I like making list, lists of what to buy, what to accomplish, books I want to read, goals. But where do I put all these lists?

In other news, I bought bamboo! And I am so very excited.

I made a succesful dinner!

I am slowly learning to cook! I made brushetta tonight, with ingredients that I picked up while wandering through the grocery store. And I added to sauce that I bought at an Italian bakery.

I have a good life here, but it seems that I definetly need to start working on progressing. Finding a career, a life path. Something that will at the very least allow me to pay off my school debts, and travel to Europe.

I love the books I am reading and lying around listening to jazz music, and feeling so very pretentious.