Beach thoughts

Every day when I am coming home, either from work or from being out with friends, I want to keep heading past my house and go straight to the beach. But I never do. Because I am too tired, or I have too much to do. Today I realized that that is what is standing in the way of me getting things done. Believing that I don't have enough time to do something, and that I can always do it later, is costing me awesome experiences right now.

So today, after going out to dinner with a former co-worker, I went to the beach. I love the sight of the sun setting, and the night was so crisp, it felt easy to breathe. On the beach there was a little boy who waved at everyone he walked by and everyone waved back. On the way back from the beach I walked past a bar that had live music and no windows. Two men on guitar were playing "Don't Worry, Be Happy" and the song filled the street. I wandered over and one of the guitarists waved to me. I went home in a much better mood than I had been in all day.

Wedding Today

Heading out to a wedding today. Usually I love weddings, and I have been very excited about this wedding. Yesterday it felt like today was filled with magic. Now I am just nervous, I am not sure why.

I have loved my week off. It feels like it has been longer. It feels like it has been forever since I was in my life downtown. It has given me a break from my routine, which is good. I get lost in my routines, working hard to maintain them, without realizing that the routines, while maintaining me are not improving me.

I think I have come away from this with a little more clarity.

So I really do hate my internet connection

I apologize for not posting more often. I am really not amused with Rogers. They kinda really suck. They have replaced the cable that runs to our apartment to give us internet, this was expected to fix everything. It has fixed nothing as far as we can tell. This has been most frustrating. When I am online all I can really do is check my email and facebook before I get too frustrated. To send an email it usually cuts out about 5 times. And then if I hit send it cuts out and then it doesn't remember what I wrote. By the time I get around to blogging I am just too frustrated.

The painting went great! The blue really came out well, and I did not end up needing stencils. I found words that you can apply to the wall (kind of like stickers) and then remove when I move. The room feels a bit more like me now.

I am on vacation this week. I am out enjoying the sun. Or I will be. today it was rainy.

There is more I am sure, but right now I am sleepy

Painting Day!

Today my Dad is coming over to help me paint my room. And by help me paint I mean my Dad will probably end up doing most of the work.

I am excited, this means I will finnally be able to put more pictures up. Although I haven't found stencils yet like I wanted to put near the top of my wall, but I will.

I had been avoiding painting because I was afraid that I would choose the wrong colour and would hate it. Then I realized that a life lived in fear is a life half lived. Well I didn't so much realize that as much as I watched Strickly Ballroom

freak out

I am currently experincing one of those freak outs that starts about one thing in particular and then rapidly becomes about how you have wasted your whole entire life and it is too late now because everyone else is so vastly far ahead in every facet (from life choices to ability to pick the type of kleenex) that it is just better if you give up entirely. (the 'you' in that paragraph was obviously a figurative you and not you, but if you read it like that perhaps you also need to start meditating).

While being envious of everyone's everything I am simultaneously dissappointed in an all encompassing everything. My crappy internet that cannot stay linked for more than 5 minutes, my landlord who does not fix anything except really really bad smelling food. The courier service at work who can't seem to understand the concept of overnight and of course the sheer existence of other people.

It has been a bit of an angry day today.

Please though do not think I include your existence in the category of "things that are making me angry" unless it is you who is making my internet cut out (or if it is you that is making fish for the third night in a row below me) I love each and every last one of you.

Yeah sometimes I still blog

I wish I was more creative. Or I am creative but I am not sure where my niche is. Maybe I should start playing the cello. Is that even how you spell that?

I am out of things right now.

Shoes

I bought shoes! I finnaly found shoes that are cute, durable, and comfortable. They were even under a hundred dollars! Actually my Mom found them, she and I went shopping and after being dragged to many a store so that I could look at all the shoes in the store (every store) my Mom was able to identify the perfect pair of shoes! I am so excited.

I really really wish I had a copy of that song 'New Shoes' it would be so very apporopriate. I am so excited.

There is currently the biggest house centipede in my sink. I am freaking out. I think it may eat me.

Do it Now

Everyone, please go and clean out your fridge. If you are sitting there thinking that you do not need to clean out your fridge, that you know the exact contents of your fridge and when you bought it, you most of all need to clean out your fridge. If you are thinking that there is nothing growing mold in your fridge, you are wrong, there are at least three things growing mold in your fridge. And that hummus that Heather gave you that you thought you had finished weeks ago, is growing no less than four different types of mold.

On the upside, your fridge will be mold free and oh so roomy.

Friday Night

I went to a fantastic party last night, one of those that makes me think that I will look back on this time in my life with incredible fondness. It was being hosted by a few people that I had lived with for a couple years who then moved out and got an apartment together. It was two of their birthdays plus a little graduation party. It was a house party where there were a whole bunch of people who I did not know and who didn't know each other, but it was all cozy anyway. there was meat on the barbeque and a lot of wine and beer (fencing tournament today meant I could not drink). There were two birthday cakes, one of which was dropped on the floor, but still salavagable. By the time the cakes were brought out though there were no more plates left so we all ate cake out of mugs. There were also very few spoons so people started eating wtih spatulas and wooden spoons. There was also roof sitting... but being uncomfortable wtih the amount of drunk people on the tiny, possibly rotting out, roof I stayed inside and played guitar hero.

Yeah, there is something terribly awesome about being in my 20's and having very few responsibilties.

Conundrum

I find it very odd that you can love where you are, but at the same time, miss where you used to be.

Good Life

I had a party last night, with a few great friends all hanging out in one room. I made crepes and brushetta and they were enjoyed by all. Even my friend who doesn't like tomatoe.

Today I spent an hour at the beach reading a book. Tonight I will make and eat one of my favouritest meals, and have dessert of strawberries and whip cream. I will drink red wine. I will wonder why I am so lucky.

Sunscreen

I was out searching for sunscreen today. I have 4 things I am looking for in sunscreen: spf of agt least 30, waterproof, moisturizing and smells nice. I have only found this combo once.... three years ago my Mom bought Suntanicals sunscreen by Banana Boat. I walked around with smooth skin, swimming when I felt like it, smelling good and fending off the sun. That was perhaps the greatest summer ever. The following summer I used the remainder of what I bought the previous summer (I had a few half used bottles because I kept losing the bottle and buying another one). Last summer though, I was not able to buy any more. As far as I can tell they have stopped making it! The only suntanicals sunscreen I can find has SPF 8. I would get more sun protection if I just asked the sun nicely not to burn me.

I tried again today... three stores... all failure... mind you one was a business depot so there wasn't any sunscreen there. I am devastated.

Saturday

I spring cleaned my room today. Cleaned the windows, washed stuff, dusted... even cleaned my fish bowl. Vacuuming occurred. I am now at home with my parents. I just watched the Ruins. It is a terrible movie at the start but it gets much better.

I am very much looking forward to the summer... but it also means that a whole school year has gone by and I haven't really accomplished anything.

Busy Week

Had a surprisingly busy week this week.... well not really that busy, just Monday night and Wednesday night I was out so late that the following day I was too tired to do anything, I just ended up going to bed.

So I haven't really balanced my bank account this week... or cleaned out my emails. I have aboout 47 emails to go through.

It's nice when I am busy, but always in the back of my mind is the steady build up of life maintenace stuff.

Chopstickery

On Friday I ate Japanese food and managed to use chopsticks the whole time! I am insanely proud of this fact. And I tried a lot of new stuff. I am liking this trying new stuff thing. I also got to drive a go cart for the first time ever. It was terrifying at first, but once I realized that I wouldn't die if I was hit, it got cool. I had a great time but I don't think this will become a habit. Very hard to read books while driving a go kart.

I'm thinking of making crepes this week, but I don't really want to go out and buy whip cream. But I have nuttella... maybe I will make rissotto.

I had an awesomely lazy day today. I got a lot of reading done today, which was great. Why did I never manage to do that while in school?

Links

Just noticed that Shashi changed my name to Christine on her blog. Weird.

Titles are hard to think of!

I fenced last night and a girl I fence with regularly (but who has been off because of knee problems) said that I had made some distinct progress! Which is awesome, because I have been trying harder!

There are 3 tournaments in April, but schedule wise I can't make it to any of them. The one I really want to go to is on the same day as a close family friend's birthday party, so that blows. I think tonight I will have to choose one and then schedule around that.

This Saturday, other than lunch with my brother and Yvonne, I have to go to the mall because the boots I bought at the start of February have a whole in them. This is very sucky because I spent an a lot on them so Iwould finnnaly have quality boots, instead of having to replace them every year. Now I have to see if I can return them, and what if they don't have any boots left in stock? What do I do then??

I have also been looking into buying Puma shoes, but their website is horribly un-navigatable.

Today was a good day! Maybe because I spent yesterday at the Career Centre 'Exploring my Options' so I am starting to realize that there is hope for a future. Could you take me seriously as a life coach? It was in the section I was looking in. Would people go to a 24 year old life coach? What knowledge could I possibly have? I could show people where to get on the subway so you get off at just the right spot... but only for some stops.

Sound Effects

On Friday my parents and I spent a day at a conservation area. Part of it was a tour of a created Native Canadian community. One lady who gave us a tour was so excited, and had so much knowledge about what she was telling us that she spoke in sound effects. I would love to have so much passion for something, that I could speak in sound effects.