Friday evening

I went dancing. There was a big thing over if we would go or not. At some point everyone going didn't want to go. But we ended up going. Oh and so did girl who ignores me. Except this time she didn't ignore, instead she mumbled stuff about me under her breath to her boyfriend. Except I should explain, she has never learned how to mumble quietly. Usually I could hear her, and I know that everyone else could too.

I was thinking about it... I hadn't been able to figure out what I wanted from this whole situation. I do not miss her friendship anymore. so it's not like I want to be friends with her. I don't want her to cease exisiting, or stop hanging out with all her friends. She has the right to exist, and to be friends with whomever she chooses. But I came to the realization that I have the right to live without someone taking jabs at me, without constant open hostility being directed at me. I just can't think of a way to fix it. I think I'll just have to stick it out.

So anyway... dancing was fun. I did not drink, so it was just me... dancing. There were many people there. It was good. And if I can get all Junior Highish here; I asked a boy to dance. He was standing there, doing nothing. So I asked him. He was very nice, he introduced himself and everything. I'm just proud of myself for asking a boy to dance.

That was my evening. As for tomorrow; I am going to study lots and lots. Angus is coming over at 7! Who knows what antics we'll get up to! And Janet's visiting on Monday after my exam. And Jo on the Wednesday. It should be a good week... except for the studying... and the exam writing.

I am going to go to bed.