Kitten Cuddiling and then I call you lame

I had an awesome day today. I got to meet up with my friend Laura where she works. Laura works at an animal hospital that takes in stray kittens. I got to meet Floyd who is so happy about not having to live on the street and not having flees that he purrs all the time. He purs if you snuggle him, he purrs while he eats, he even purrs while he goes to the bathroom. After I put him back in his cage he stood in the corner and purred, nothing was happening, he just wanted to show the corner how much he appreciated it.

After the kittens Laura and I went to the mall and I got a coat! YAY! Take that all the people who said I looked homeless, I am now hip, professional AND warm. Ha.

Then Laura and I went out to Swiss Challet for dinner and then we went to our good friend Travis's birthday. We played video games and drank martinis. If that is not your idea of an awesome party, please don't invite me. Or talk to me... cause clearly you are lame.

Privileged

I really loved 'Privileged' a new show I watched on Tuesday. It had Sheianne from Reba, another show I loved. It had cute story lines, it's not a show that makes you smarter, but it is what the critics call 'heart warming'.

It also reminded me so much of myself. How we always wore our designer dresses to school. And how Shashi had her annual start of the year party on her yacht. Good times.

Admiral Finnigan: Status Report

Admiral Finnigan has a very awesome bubble nest going on. I am pretty sure it has wall to wall carpeting and a sunken living room. It would appear that my vain little fish is secure enough in his sourroundings, and himself of course, that he is trying very hard to attract a mate. I don't think I am going to tell him that there is no female Betta on her way.

I tried to clean out the uneaten food off the top of his water yesterday. Usually I just do a good sweep at the top of the water with his net. Except he swam in the net. On purpose. This fish has no survival instincts at all.

Better

Last night, after having a good freak out, I ordered in dinner. I watched House and Privileged. And oh my gosh it was so good to just relax for the night. I didn't try to accomplish anything or pursue any goal. I just ate some delicious food, that I didn't make, and watched some TV without organizing anything while doing so. I didn't do dishes, I didn't make my lunch or pack up for fencing. I didn't even hang up my work clothes. I just vegged. I feel so much better this morning. I forget sometimes that it isn't always better to fight against a freak out, sometimes it's better to let it happen, and then it's over. And then it's important to relax, and realize you don't have to sort out your whole life in one night.

Okay so....

So I think I have figured out most of the issue.

I am tired. I am tired of the routine and the schedule and mostly I am worn out.

I am giving myself the night off to mope.

Blah

I tried to buy a coat today and I was unsuccesful. Apparently I am not supposed to own a coat this year. My apartment smells because the people below me have shut all their windows and are cooking things that smell like crap. I am tired of making dinner and lunches. I am tired of washing laundry and vacuuming.

Fish = still swimming. I, on the other hand, am not doing so swimmingly.

Ask and ye shall recieve AND get to work on time

Recently at work the office radio station was changed to the radio station I listen to at home. Originally I thought this was awesome because I was so tired of the easy listening radio station. Unfortunately I have found that listening to the same station all day at work and then at home is way too repetitive. They play the same songs over and over again and the same commercials. And in the evening they switch over to a broadcast that is based in New York. I am not in New York so this frustrates me.

I was on the subway this morning thinking about how I need to find a new radio station to listen to at home. Something jazzy, but not all jazz. Something that would help me unwind from work and not remind of work. And a station with a good news source so I can find out if there is an emergency of some sort. My parents have suggested a station but I think it is all jazz. So I was agonizing over what would obvisously be an endless perhaps lifetime long search when I realized that my entire subway car was devoted to the revamping of CBC radio 2. Every last ad, from the banners on the top to the poster ads on the side of the cars were devoted to Radio 2, which features an eccletic mix of upbeat music types that (and this was seriously in the ad) will help you unwind from your work day. It was like the subway system heard my thoughts and answered me in the form of subway ads.

Admiral Finnigan is eating! He is eating flakes! And swimming! a lot! Go Fin!

Admiral Finnigan!

I have a new Betta Fish! His name is Admiral Finnigan. I figured he would be in the navy, because I expected him to be like Freddy and be fearlessly territorial. Freddy would even attack me, even though I could totally take him. Cause I was like 5 feet taller than him.... and I can breathe air. Finnigan is a frady fish though, he swims away a lot. If he keeps up his frightened ways I may need to bump him down a couple rankings.


Finnigan is just getting used to his new home. He has a bigger bowl than what he had in the pet store. And he has some nice rocks, which were sterizled today by pouring boiling water over them, and he has a plant for him to hide in. He is not eating yet which has me a little nervous, but I just put him in his new home today so maybe he is still getting settled in.

He is a deep red colour. I wanted a red fish because Freddy was blue, so I wanted a fish that would not feel like I was replacing Freddy. I call him Freddy once in a while by accident though.

Weird, right now he is one corner of his bowl stairing at his relection in the glass. It is like he is hypnotized by himself. Maybe Finnigan is a vain fish. He was one of the prettier fishes.

Dinner with Mike

Every once in awhile when I go back home my schedule matches up with Mike's, my best friend from grade school so we go out for dinner to catch up. Every time we do this though, we can never choose where. We spend the whole day trying to think of places, throwing out suggestions, asking other people if they know of anywhere good. Every time we end up going to East Side Mario's. We always read the menu, front to back, debate and agonize over what we should order; if we are in a pizza mood that night or if we want to try their new special. Every time we order the same meals. After dinner we agonize over what we should go do; should we go to the movies, if so what movie, should we go to a bar, or maybe we should mini putt. Every time we end up at Tim Horton's and talk for hours. And absolutely every time I have an awesome time with my best friend Mike.

Temperature

On the hook on the back of my door I hang a beach towel. I use it when I want to go read on the beach. On the same hook I have a scarf, I keep it out because lately it has been chilly in the mornings. I feel this situation epitomizes the weather we have been having lately; a beach towel and winter scarf hanging on the same hook.

Mornings

There is a man who lives on my street who drives a motorcycle. He parks it on the street near my house. And he idles this motorcycle every morning. I don't know much about motorcycles so I don't know if you have to warm it up for 10 minutes before you ride it, or if it has to sound like a 100 gun salute while it's warming up, but I do know about sleep, and that I like it. He idles his motorcycle at about 7 in the morning, while I am usually up at this time on week days I know that this is not always the case. He also idles it on Saturday and Sunday mornings as well. I have never met this man, so I know about as much about him as I know about motorcycles, but I have a very strong feeling that I would not like him.

Practice

I had an excellent practive tonight. We worked with a new sabre coach who will probably be with us for the school year. To see how we fence he broke every movement down to it's pieces, from how we held our head to where our point should be. It was awesome learning the precise placement of our feet. I learned a lot of that stuff when I first started fencing, but I didn't really grasp it all and I got lazy. While free fencing I was able to do a stop-cut (a move I have been working on for months) on a girl who is quite good. I was actually able to match her point for point while fencing her. Huge improvements all around!

Wednesday Mornings

Wednesday evenings I have fencing practice. Every Wednesday morning I don't want to go to fencing. I believe this is because almost every morning I don't want to get out of bed. Usually I start making bargains with myself that as soon as work is over I will come home and go to bed. Except on Wednesdays I know I can't do that. So every Wednesday morning I tell myself I am going to quit fencing and spend my life in bed.

Volunteering

After a year of saying that I will volunteer someonewhere I have finnally made active steps towards doing it. It is something different from what I have done before, (I am being consciously vague on this) which is good but also a bit scary. I do not know if I will be able to do what the position involves, but the only way I will know will be to try. It only requires a one night a week commitment which is good, and in a time slot that actually fits my schedule.

There are many reasons I want to volunteer, one of the lesser reasons is so that I will be less self-absorbed. It is not so much that I want to help other people so I realize how much I have, but I think that actively making time to focus on people outside my daily life will give me a chance to seperate from the thoughts I think all day every day, and will hopefully give me a new perspective.

Overheard on the Streetcar

Riding eastbound on the streetcar I sat near a 5 year old boy (his birthday is seven days away!!!) and his mom:

Boy: Can we go to the park?

Mom: No, but we can go tomorrow

Boy: Today IS tomorrow!!!!


That kid is hella deep yo.

Freddy - RIP

Freddy the fish is dead. And I don't think this is the kind of dead that you get over, like the internet suggested it would be. Freddy is no longer lying on his side on the bottom of the bowl, he is floating, on the top of his water. And doing something which I think is frequently called 'decomposing'. I will miss Freddy, he was my first pet ever. I will get another fish, eventually. I think maybe a red one, because Freddy was blue.

Friday night

I went out last night with a few friends to celebrate and as a farewell gathering. One of my friend's sister spent the summer in the hospital she is out now and getting stronger. My other friend is leaving for London (England) for a year. Visiting her will be difficult. 5 of us got together, and went out to a crowded bar. It was as a great time, where we weren't out to impress people or pick up or anything, just out to have fun.

We made it back to one of their apartment's where three of us all fell asleep in the same bed (well one was on the floor, but she was next to the bed). I lived with the two girls in my first year, it was odd realizing that we our entering our 6th year of knowing each other. As I was falling asleep last night, (or passing out, whichever you want to call it), sharing covers with a good friend, I remembered how scarred I was in first year, that I wouldn't make friends and that I would be lonely. I want to go back and hug that girl, the scarred me, and tell her that it will all be okay. It may not work out quite the way you think, and there will some very bad times, but oh my gosh it is overwhelmingly good. But I don't own a time machine (not one that I can use without risking a tear in the space time continuum) so instead of going back to hug the me from Frosh week, I'll just tell the now-me these things when I get scared.

things are not looking good...

things are not looking good for my fish. He is lying down.... the internet said that this was okay, that they frequently wake up from this.... but I don't know. This makes me a little bit sad. He is my buddy. Poor fish. I feel like perhaps I failed him.

Virus

My computer has a virus... it causes windows to pop up. Seriously who gets a pop-up virus? It's like I just started hanging out on the internet or something. I did a virus sweep with AVG but I am not sure if it killed it or not. Nothing seems to be happening right now but I fear that it is secretly ravaging my computer without me knowing it, and one morning I am going to wake up and my computer with have exploded.

I want to reformat but I don't know how with this comptuer, this doesn't come with a disk... I think I just have to ask it nicely and maybe then it will reformat.

Freddy

I am worried about the mental stability of my fish. It is coming up on his one year anniversary with me. He doesn't seem to want to eat anymore and he just swims aggressively around his bowl or he sleeps. He also stopped making bubble nests, therefore he does not feel like he's worthy of attracting a mate. Maybe he has finnally realized that his world is less than 3 feet square. That would upset me.

Beach thoughts

Every day when I am coming home, either from work or from being out with friends, I want to keep heading past my house and go straight to the beach. But I never do. Because I am too tired, or I have too much to do. Today I realized that that is what is standing in the way of me getting things done. Believing that I don't have enough time to do something, and that I can always do it later, is costing me awesome experiences right now.

So today, after going out to dinner with a former co-worker, I went to the beach. I love the sight of the sun setting, and the night was so crisp, it felt easy to breathe. On the beach there was a little boy who waved at everyone he walked by and everyone waved back. On the way back from the beach I walked past a bar that had live music and no windows. Two men on guitar were playing "Don't Worry, Be Happy" and the song filled the street. I wandered over and one of the guitarists waved to me. I went home in a much better mood than I had been in all day.

Wedding Today

Heading out to a wedding today. Usually I love weddings, and I have been very excited about this wedding. Yesterday it felt like today was filled with magic. Now I am just nervous, I am not sure why.

I have loved my week off. It feels like it has been longer. It feels like it has been forever since I was in my life downtown. It has given me a break from my routine, which is good. I get lost in my routines, working hard to maintain them, without realizing that the routines, while maintaining me are not improving me.

I think I have come away from this with a little more clarity.

So I really do hate my internet connection

I apologize for not posting more often. I am really not amused with Rogers. They kinda really suck. They have replaced the cable that runs to our apartment to give us internet, this was expected to fix everything. It has fixed nothing as far as we can tell. This has been most frustrating. When I am online all I can really do is check my email and facebook before I get too frustrated. To send an email it usually cuts out about 5 times. And then if I hit send it cuts out and then it doesn't remember what I wrote. By the time I get around to blogging I am just too frustrated.

The painting went great! The blue really came out well, and I did not end up needing stencils. I found words that you can apply to the wall (kind of like stickers) and then remove when I move. The room feels a bit more like me now.

I am on vacation this week. I am out enjoying the sun. Or I will be. today it was rainy.

There is more I am sure, but right now I am sleepy

Painting Day!

Today my Dad is coming over to help me paint my room. And by help me paint I mean my Dad will probably end up doing most of the work.

I am excited, this means I will finnally be able to put more pictures up. Although I haven't found stencils yet like I wanted to put near the top of my wall, but I will.

I had been avoiding painting because I was afraid that I would choose the wrong colour and would hate it. Then I realized that a life lived in fear is a life half lived. Well I didn't so much realize that as much as I watched Strickly Ballroom

freak out

I am currently experincing one of those freak outs that starts about one thing in particular and then rapidly becomes about how you have wasted your whole entire life and it is too late now because everyone else is so vastly far ahead in every facet (from life choices to ability to pick the type of kleenex) that it is just better if you give up entirely. (the 'you' in that paragraph was obviously a figurative you and not you, but if you read it like that perhaps you also need to start meditating).

While being envious of everyone's everything I am simultaneously dissappointed in an all encompassing everything. My crappy internet that cannot stay linked for more than 5 minutes, my landlord who does not fix anything except really really bad smelling food. The courier service at work who can't seem to understand the concept of overnight and of course the sheer existence of other people.

It has been a bit of an angry day today.

Please though do not think I include your existence in the category of "things that are making me angry" unless it is you who is making my internet cut out (or if it is you that is making fish for the third night in a row below me) I love each and every last one of you.

Yeah sometimes I still blog

I wish I was more creative. Or I am creative but I am not sure where my niche is. Maybe I should start playing the cello. Is that even how you spell that?

I am out of things right now.

Shoes

I bought shoes! I finnaly found shoes that are cute, durable, and comfortable. They were even under a hundred dollars! Actually my Mom found them, she and I went shopping and after being dragged to many a store so that I could look at all the shoes in the store (every store) my Mom was able to identify the perfect pair of shoes! I am so excited.

I really really wish I had a copy of that song 'New Shoes' it would be so very apporopriate. I am so excited.

There is currently the biggest house centipede in my sink. I am freaking out. I think it may eat me.

Do it Now

Everyone, please go and clean out your fridge. If you are sitting there thinking that you do not need to clean out your fridge, that you know the exact contents of your fridge and when you bought it, you most of all need to clean out your fridge. If you are thinking that there is nothing growing mold in your fridge, you are wrong, there are at least three things growing mold in your fridge. And that hummus that Heather gave you that you thought you had finished weeks ago, is growing no less than four different types of mold.

On the upside, your fridge will be mold free and oh so roomy.

Friday Night

I went to a fantastic party last night, one of those that makes me think that I will look back on this time in my life with incredible fondness. It was being hosted by a few people that I had lived with for a couple years who then moved out and got an apartment together. It was two of their birthdays plus a little graduation party. It was a house party where there were a whole bunch of people who I did not know and who didn't know each other, but it was all cozy anyway. there was meat on the barbeque and a lot of wine and beer (fencing tournament today meant I could not drink). There were two birthday cakes, one of which was dropped on the floor, but still salavagable. By the time the cakes were brought out though there were no more plates left so we all ate cake out of mugs. There were also very few spoons so people started eating wtih spatulas and wooden spoons. There was also roof sitting... but being uncomfortable wtih the amount of drunk people on the tiny, possibly rotting out, roof I stayed inside and played guitar hero.

Yeah, there is something terribly awesome about being in my 20's and having very few responsibilties.

Conundrum

I find it very odd that you can love where you are, but at the same time, miss where you used to be.

Good Life

I had a party last night, with a few great friends all hanging out in one room. I made crepes and brushetta and they were enjoyed by all. Even my friend who doesn't like tomatoe.

Today I spent an hour at the beach reading a book. Tonight I will make and eat one of my favouritest meals, and have dessert of strawberries and whip cream. I will drink red wine. I will wonder why I am so lucky.

Sunscreen

I was out searching for sunscreen today. I have 4 things I am looking for in sunscreen: spf of agt least 30, waterproof, moisturizing and smells nice. I have only found this combo once.... three years ago my Mom bought Suntanicals sunscreen by Banana Boat. I walked around with smooth skin, swimming when I felt like it, smelling good and fending off the sun. That was perhaps the greatest summer ever. The following summer I used the remainder of what I bought the previous summer (I had a few half used bottles because I kept losing the bottle and buying another one). Last summer though, I was not able to buy any more. As far as I can tell they have stopped making it! The only suntanicals sunscreen I can find has SPF 8. I would get more sun protection if I just asked the sun nicely not to burn me.

I tried again today... three stores... all failure... mind you one was a business depot so there wasn't any sunscreen there. I am devastated.

Saturday

I spring cleaned my room today. Cleaned the windows, washed stuff, dusted... even cleaned my fish bowl. Vacuuming occurred. I am now at home with my parents. I just watched the Ruins. It is a terrible movie at the start but it gets much better.

I am very much looking forward to the summer... but it also means that a whole school year has gone by and I haven't really accomplished anything.

Busy Week

Had a surprisingly busy week this week.... well not really that busy, just Monday night and Wednesday night I was out so late that the following day I was too tired to do anything, I just ended up going to bed.

So I haven't really balanced my bank account this week... or cleaned out my emails. I have aboout 47 emails to go through.

It's nice when I am busy, but always in the back of my mind is the steady build up of life maintenace stuff.

Chopstickery

On Friday I ate Japanese food and managed to use chopsticks the whole time! I am insanely proud of this fact. And I tried a lot of new stuff. I am liking this trying new stuff thing. I also got to drive a go cart for the first time ever. It was terrifying at first, but once I realized that I wouldn't die if I was hit, it got cool. I had a great time but I don't think this will become a habit. Very hard to read books while driving a go kart.

I'm thinking of making crepes this week, but I don't really want to go out and buy whip cream. But I have nuttella... maybe I will make rissotto.

I had an awesomely lazy day today. I got a lot of reading done today, which was great. Why did I never manage to do that while in school?

Links

Just noticed that Shashi changed my name to Christine on her blog. Weird.

Titles are hard to think of!

I fenced last night and a girl I fence with regularly (but who has been off because of knee problems) said that I had made some distinct progress! Which is awesome, because I have been trying harder!

There are 3 tournaments in April, but schedule wise I can't make it to any of them. The one I really want to go to is on the same day as a close family friend's birthday party, so that blows. I think tonight I will have to choose one and then schedule around that.

This Saturday, other than lunch with my brother and Yvonne, I have to go to the mall because the boots I bought at the start of February have a whole in them. This is very sucky because I spent an a lot on them so Iwould finnnaly have quality boots, instead of having to replace them every year. Now I have to see if I can return them, and what if they don't have any boots left in stock? What do I do then??

I have also been looking into buying Puma shoes, but their website is horribly un-navigatable.

Today was a good day! Maybe because I spent yesterday at the Career Centre 'Exploring my Options' so I am starting to realize that there is hope for a future. Could you take me seriously as a life coach? It was in the section I was looking in. Would people go to a 24 year old life coach? What knowledge could I possibly have? I could show people where to get on the subway so you get off at just the right spot... but only for some stops.

Sound Effects

On Friday my parents and I spent a day at a conservation area. Part of it was a tour of a created Native Canadian community. One lady who gave us a tour was so excited, and had so much knowledge about what she was telling us that she spoke in sound effects. I would love to have so much passion for something, that I could speak in sound effects.

Sometimes it feels like I will never accomplish anything. I don't even seem to have an interest in anything job like.... or any sort of passion. Actually I currently have a few passions. I shall list them:

1. Olive Oil
2. The smell of cucumbers
3. The colour light green and pale pink
4. Spring
5. Tulips
6. The idea that perhaps... maybe... I might have a future.

I feel like I am looking for inspirations.. something. But very little seems to spark anything.

Weekend

This whole weekend it has felt like summer. Heat more than warmth. I've wanted to wear tank tops and skirts. Running shoes instead of winter boots. I look forward to wandering around in the city without gloves and a coat and a scarf. I look forard to lying on the beach and reading. Drinking red wine with the windows open. Eating on patios. Warm nights, long warm nights. I love the summer.

I will buy a beach towel soon. And new running shoes that will last more than two months (Screw you payless). And I will explore restaurants in the Cheapeats book Heather gave me. Like we did today, very good food with nice atmosphere, Heather is a very good restaurant picker.

I am in love with pesto, and olive oil right now.

Subway Ride

Since daylight savings time I have been able to enjoy a different view out of the subway window (it's actually more of a monorail). I catch the end of sunrise, where things are a soft pink instead of the intense reds and oranges (which I love). I was looking at it and thought that THAT colour was dusty rose, not the horendous colour of all of my high school furninture. Then I realized that the sunrise was more of a powder pink, that was dusted on the sky, it itself was not dusty.

Morning

Last night I had a party and a couple of my friends slept over. In the morning around 5 am we had to go move my friend's car so she wouldn't get a ticket. The world was quiet and the snow was freshly plowed. As it turns out 5 am is very peaceful.

We got back to my apartment and it was very calming to know that two of my close friends were sleeping in my apartment all cozy and warm. I watched the sunrise through the window, life is good.

Two people came in my work to have a meeting with our product manager. Right as they were about to tell me who they were looking for one of my co-workers began singing happy birthday over the intercom for someone who's birthday it was that day. The two guests looked at each other, and then started singing along. One even gave a 'Cha cha cha' at the end of the song. I love people who are willing to play along.

Remembering things differently

I did not have the easiest second year in university. When I refer to second year I tend to refer to it as 'The Year My Life Imploded' even though I do not think that is the proper use of the word 'imploded'.

This evening my roommate and I were looking through pictures on her computer from that year, and I realized that it was a really really good year. Despite everything that happened, I had a great time. I met a lot of friends that I am still really close to now. It was a year that I felt like family with a lot of the people I lived with. I think from now on, I should start looking at it as the year things changed, mostly for the better.

Family Day

I am currently in love with the show 'How I met your Mother'. Mike lent me the first season and it is awesome. I suggest that everyone goes out and watches it right now.

I spent today at work, despite the famiy day nature of today. I was cleaning out files because our offices are moving buildings. Is it sad that I am very excited to set up my new desk? Cause I think it's kinda sad. Seriously, I need something a bit beyond what I currently look forward to.

Fence Fence!

Because I commute in from work I usually arrive late at fencing. Normally I come in halfway through the warm up/muscle strengthening. Whenever I join in everyone else is all worn out, so simple things like leg lifts make them groan in pain, this has the tendency to make me cocky. Today I worked out to this guy who is built, and he was exhausted, I thought that I was a total animal because I could do three push ups in the time it took him to do one. I quickly ran out of steam.

Morning Review (at night)

Since the days have been getting shorter I have noticed an interesting phenomenon. I wake up before the sunrise and go to bed before the sunset, but I never notice either happening. That has made me kind of sad for a while, to be so caught up in my scheduals and lists and thinking and drudgery that I don't notice something as simple, and as beatiful, as the sunrise.


This morning, I saw the sunrise. And it was beautiful and orange and glowed. It made me happy.

Beautiful Things

I made dinner for my roommate for two nights in a row. I made brushetta and pizza last night and tonight I made brushetta (I really like brushetta) and egg plant parmasean. It was funny on Saturday night because we were out of regular cheese, so all we had was camenbare to put on the pizza. It tasted great, but what kind of people have to settle for camenbare?

I cleaned my fish all on my own today, this was a huge step as every other time I needed someone there to spot me while doing it. This is probably because the first time I did it Freddy hopped out and landed on the counter. I was understandably paralyzed with fear and my roommate had to rescue him. I am pretty sure that I lost about 4 years of my life in that moment. Hopefully it will have been the years wherein I have a terrible hair style and look terrible in pictures.

New Years etc.

I am not doing very well with this whole post more often thing. It was a new years resolution to post more and to write in my diary more. Maybe I just need to get in the habit. I also need to work on being less intimidated by Shashi's blog. No one can equal her ability to write on anything and make it interesting.

I think my life needs both more reflection and dreaming. I am getting all caught up in the cycle of chores in life. I am accomplishing nothing but tiny goals right now, nothing long term. For example I am happy when I manage to do laundry and get it all folded and put away. But there is nothing really long term about that. What happened to my volunteering? Where is my career research? I miss looking forward to things. Looking forward to accomplishing something big. In school you could always look forward to the end of the year, and past that graduation. I had a goal then. Now it seems I am living for nothing in particular. Don't get me wrong I love living, never known anything else really, but one cannot live for the two week sheet washing rotation (on the other weeks I wash white clothes).

Getting things done

So for some reason I am in the mood to get things done today. Since returning from work here is what I have accomplished:

- Done all of my laundry
- Ripped 15 CDs to my computer.
- Balanced my cheque book (ha I do that now)
- Vacuumed my room
- Cleaned out my purse
- Cleaned out my email
- Fed the cat
- Put away my roommate vegtables

See, I am awesome. The only issue is that I have yet to make dinner. It is 10. I have not eaten yet.

I am hungry.

Western

I am heading out to London this weekend to visit Jo Mike and Ryan. I am really excited to see them. I am also really excited because now I have these new travel cases for things like makeup and toiletry stuff. I got them for Christmas from my brother's girlfriend Yvonne. The cases are really cute and I want to travel more so they should come in handy. There is this travel jewllery holder that I found online and it's really pretty and would match, but I can't legitimize buying it because I have one from a long time ago. These are the thoughts that go through my head while I'm filing.

I find that I don't post often on this blog because I always feel pressure to say something valuable. And I also find that when I start writing all my thoughts become disjointed. Perhaps if I post more my thoughts will actually flow.

Goals

I think it is time that I start solidly outlining my goals and pursuing them. Some may call these 'new years resolutions', but I want to look more long term. Career wise, and in my personal life. Perhaps I will volunteer at a food bank. Maybe volunteering would make me less self involved.

I am currently strugilling with an organizational problem, I have too many lists. I like making list, lists of what to buy, what to accomplish, books I want to read, goals. But where do I put all these lists?

In other news, I bought bamboo! And I am so very excited.

I made a succesful dinner!

I am slowly learning to cook! I made brushetta tonight, with ingredients that I picked up while wandering through the grocery store. And I added to sauce that I bought at an Italian bakery.

I have a good life here, but it seems that I definetly need to start working on progressing. Finding a career, a life path. Something that will at the very least allow me to pay off my school debts, and travel to Europe.

I love the books I am reading and lying around listening to jazz music, and feeling so very pretentious.

Finding a Job

I was recently told by a financial advisor that I need to find a new job. He seems to think that my degree should be used for something. So I need to apply what I learned in school to finding a future.

Things I am Qualified to Do Because of the Vast Amounts of TV I watched During my Degree

- Cause the accused to break down and admit to his crimes during cross examination
- Perform invasive surgery under the worst of conditions
- Score the winning touch down in the Big Game
- Model and make it fierce
- Personal Trainer and Nutritionist in such a way that I will change your LIFE
- Make out with a close personal friend and have it end badly
- Make out with a close personal frined and have it end well
- Sell drugs and murder some people
- Re-decorate people's homes while not listening to any of their opinions
- Flipping Houses for fun and profit
- Fondly remember my days as a child star

Oh yes my future is just waiting to begin.

Sunday=Snow Day

Today is Sunday and it is so snowy that I have decided to stay inside and accomplish little to nothing.

Currently I am thinking that I may paint my room (not today, as it is a snow day). My room right now is all white from when the last occupents occupied it. I thought before that I was happy with the white but now I can't stand it. I'm thinking of a slate blue with a navy blue rag technique over it.

But maybe that would be too much blue. I have a lot of blue stuff so that may be a lot....

I made pizza last night! From scratch! Well the dough was from scratch, I did not make the sauce nore did I milk the cow for the cheese. But now I made pizza! It is so nice to add something to my dinner options, other than pasta.

The Last 24 Hours

So in the last 24 hours the following has occurred in my life:

• I deeply cut my thumb (including the nail) while cutting bread
• I stubbed my pinky toe so hard that it is now swollen and purple
• I got a paper cut on my pinky finger (not that bad, but those are always upsetting)
• Discovered that my apartment has developed some sort of a plumbing back up. The Bidday (which we don't use, because we are disturbed by it), overflows whenver water goes through the kitchen sink, or the toilet. I am willing to presume that this affliction also affects the shower and the bathroom sink. Awesome.

I have ordered Swiss Challet.

Rissotto

OK so I just made some rissotto. It did not really go well. The rissotto does not taste horrible. Which, if I ever open a restaurant, is what all my menu items will have as their descriptor.

My gas stove apparently does not work. Well 1 element works, which is not so helpful when you are supposed to be simmering while you are stirring something else.

New Place

All right I haven't blogged in awhile. I've been busy. Starting my new job and working out what it's like to live on my own.

I am starting to cook, today I made crepes for a dinner party. Everyone really liked them. On Tuesday I will be making rissotto. Maybe soon I won't have to spend so much money on pre-made meals.

I'm sorting things out at work, but now that everything is sorting out I now have to start sorting out my future. And that is pretty damn scary.

Jobiriffic

Well I officially have a job. I am a receptionist. I HAVE A JOB! Yay! I also signed my lease yesterday. I have the startings of what some people call 'a life'.

I will be working every other weekend at Canadian Tire, until I reach the point that I just can't take it anymore. We are currently very close to that point. Staying on at Canadian Tire will allow me to offset some of the start up costs of a new apartment and a new job. For example, I have no clothes that I can wear to work. I also don't own a toaster. What kind of human being does not own a toaster?

On the upside my new job is far enough away that I need a metro pass. So I will be able to visit everybody..... for free!

Back from vacation

I have officialy returned from a week in North Carolina.. The vacation was great, a whole lot of being lazy.

I had a job interview this morning, a position with the visitor's centre at my university. Sadly though the position would only exist until December. A pickle, but far better than nothing.


In other news: I don't think people should be allowed to use the term 'monies' .

This time I will actually mention Posh Spice

So I am kind of excited about living in the beaches. I am a little scared thous that it will get taken.

The rooms aren't huge but the neighbourhood is fantastic. It's a walk to get to the bus, to get to the subway to get to the rest of Toronto. It would mean the extra expense of buying a metro pass, but then I would own a metro pass! This could change everything, in a good way.

In other news, I totally loved the posh spice reality tv show. I had always kind of felt indifferent towards her, I mean she was the spice girl I had the least in common with. But I learned that we could totally be pals. She is hilarious, feels awkward, and gets drunk when she feels uncomfortable. Good times.

Posh Spice

I am currently looking at moving downtown. This is a huge decision. My friend and I have found a nice place in the beaches. My friend went and saw it the other day, but I had to miss the appointment for fencing. She said it's amazing. But it's a bit of a trip from the subway. When I lived in residence the subway stop was at the end of my very short one way street. At this house I would not be living that close to the stop, plus the stop would not even be on the yellow line, it would be on the green one. Really close to the blue one.... I didn't even know that one exsisited!

On top of that I don't have a job to work at downtown. Therefore I don't have money to pay for, you know, heat and the such.

But the apartment comes with a loft.... that has a nook.... that I hear.... is perfect for reading.

Recent News

I graduated.

home

I am officially home for the summer. Working at Canadian Tire. I am a university graduate and I am still working at the same job I have had since highschool. Something about this, or everything about this really, is very depressing. But on the upside I have a job so I can continue to pay the bills and I do not feel guilty when I go to the occasional movie.

I am looking for jobs, and I have applied to a couple. The unfortunate bit is that I am not very good at this whole job searching thing, but I guess it is something that you learn as you go along.

I am currently hoping to move back downtown in September, but that all hinges on whether or not I will be able to pay this thing called 'rent' and do this thing called 'eat'. Both of these things require that I have a 'job'.

The music reunion is this Saturday, I am excited to see people like Shashi and Heather, and Eve... is Eve going? I am unsure. But anyway there is excitement. But the rest of the people? Not so sure... I mean come one..... the people who I wanted to see past high school I have seen.

Spring

I have developed an obsession with tulips. I really want to buy tulips for my room, as I have a really nice vase and tulips would add a wonderful touch of spring to my room. But I honestly cannot justify the expense. the tulips would only be good for so long, while I could the money towards better things, such as paying off my debt.

I have finished one of 5 final papers. Finishing this paper means I have earned the award of buying new shoes at payless. OOOOoooohhh some new summer shoes. I am very much looking forward to the return of skirt wearing season.

I want to go traveling. But really I don't know how to go about such a thing. First off I cannot afford this, and secondly, where would I stay? I have made a list though of places I would like to travel to once I figure out the minor details.

I am building a book list on Amazon.com of books I plan on reading in the summer. Amonzon. com thinks I intend to buy them, they apparently are unaware of 'libraries'.
Speaking of which, this is pretty much awesome:
http://thenonist.com/index.php/thenonist/comments/3223/

One of them has my most favouritest architectural feature of all time: the spiral staircase. I also enjoy the band.

In other book news, I have downloaded a book by Douglas Adams to my iPod. Now I can enjoy books to and from class! This is much safer than my previous habit of reading while walking.

Oh, and here is what I am debating buying of the internet, I will be a true hit at parties:
http://www.nerdyshirts.com/productdetails.aspx?id=100088760

Why I am reconsidering my lifestyle

Two reasons I am reconsidering my current lifestyle:

1. While on reading week I got to work in plain clothes. I put on a sweatshirt that I had not warn for a couple months. On the way to work I could not figure out why the car smelled like pizza. Then work smelled like pizza. Then I realized it was my sweatshirt, unwashed for 2 months.

2. At work we sell this garbage can that smells like eucalyptus. I smelled it and my first thought was "I'd throw up in that".

Musings

I find myself wishing lately that I was extraordinary.

Clint Eastwood

I was in class today and overheard the following comments :

Girl: "Clint Eastwood, is that the guy from Million Dollar Baby?"

My response: "Clint Eastwood is not from Million Dollar Baby. Clint Eastwood is not from anywhere. He's fucking Clint Eastwood! Million Dollar Baby is that movie that has Clint Eastwood in it."

Of course I did not say that out loud. That would be rude.

Drag Show

For a friend's stagette we went to a gay bar tonight. And saw the greatest drag show ever. Totally beats the drag race I saw in Montreal. Miss Heavenly Heights and Miss Farenheight. Awesome.

I wonder what I am to them.

U of T is big, a no fooling kind of big. But come fourth year I havce realized that despite this bigness there are many people that I recognize. From classes, to residence to the dining hall, there are people that I recognize.

There's that guy who always wears too much cologne and who I don't like riding the elevator with.

There's that guy who's really noisy in the dining hall but I respect him because he's always very careful in making a salad.

There's that guy who is in my crim and psych classes, he's always 10 minutes late to everything, including the exams, and always seems genuinely surprised that we started without him.

There is that girl who has really great makeup and who's waist is about the size of my thigh, I always wonder how her internal organs fit inside her.

There is the guy from my psych classes, who wears the really soft leather coat, and who laughs whenever I make comments to myself about things that I find humourous in class.

Or that guy I pass on my way too and from classes, we seem to be on the opposite schedual, I'm always leaving whenever he's coming back, and vice versa.

After realizing that my school career has been populated with all these people, I can't help but wonder, what am I to them? Do they notice me? How do they remember me? Probably the curly hair. Or do they notice that I always walk in one minute before class? Do they notice that I am braver now and talk in class? Just makes me wonder.

Exhausted

I went to the gym this morning. I am severely exhausted. I was hoping that exercising would give me more energy, but right now I am completly wiped out.

I had a fencing tournament on Saturday. U of T hosted it so it was very convienient. I placed 13 out of 16, I think that's pretty damn good considering this is my first year fencing. I am quite proud of the progress I have made.

I wish I had a goal. Or a dream or a something. I feel kinda directionless right now. My whole life the plan has been to go to highschool and then university. I have done that, and that's now coming to a close. So I don't really have anything beyond that. So I'm looking around, trying to find a goal, trying to find something that I want to do, or work towards. Something.

New Semester

I've had the first week of classes and they all seem pretty good so far. I will have a few major papers and a couple small ones. I havce mostly psych this semester and one crim class. I may actually be able to do well this semester.
I was at a fencing tournament this weekend, and I actually beat people!!! I won a total of 3 bouts, which is 3 better than I've ever done! I was also warned by a ref that I was too violent. That's pretty awesome. Our team ended up coming fourth, which means no metal, but we all fenced really really well. It was a great time.

Finished Two Tests

I have finished two tests today, which means I am done with two courses. Usually I get very excited as the Christmas Break approaches, it is a little different this year. I guess the difference comes in that it, and everything else, is tinged by the word 'last'. This is my last Christmas break, next semester will be my last semester.

All this amounts to me feeling like I am running out of time. I feel like I am running out of time to enjoy what is happening right now and I am running out of time to prepare for what will happen after.

I have no idea what I am doing next, but it feels like I need a little time off. Time to work at paying my debt, time to think about stuff before getting into anything big. But applying for internships and different jobs will take time I just do not seem to have.

Back to studying.

A List of Good Stuff

Ok so I have been a little negative and sad lately, because it's the middle of November. and like any University Student I am feeling like there is way too much to do than what is humanly possible, and I'm not exactly seeing a pay off.

So, to cheer me up... a list of things I am happy about.

1. I have really awesome birthday mittens
2. I had a really great birthday
3. Peter is coming over on Friday for Swiss Challet
4. A friend is coming over on Friday to get a tour of my campus
5. I bought really nice new soft pants
6. I bought 2 new pairs of pants at 9.99
7. A big assignment that has been hanging over my head will be done by Thursday
8. I will be able to go to Thursday night's fencing practice no matter what
9. I have new really soft pajamas to wear
10. I have some great new CDs to listen too
11. my room is wonderfully clean.
12. Prison Break finaled last night so I don't have to keep watching it


OK I feel a little more upbeat now

I want to go to Indigo and wander around for awhile.

I want to go and buy myself birthday pajamas.

I want to eat Swiss Challet with cheesy bread.

I want to nap a little.

I want to read a book, a good book, for awhile, with a candle burning and maybe in the bath.


I want.

ahem...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would really love too...

I would really love to take a warm bath right now and read a book.

Test done

Ok so I wrote my test today. I think it went well.

I have decided to go to a movie tonight so that I can get out of my head and out of my room.

Tomorrow I go home to party it up at the Staff Party

Sunday I am going to the fencing tournament because one assignment got pushed back.

This all seems a little more doable.

Thank you everyone for your support

I am debating now giving up being a Varsity Fencer. I would still fence, but it would mean less commitment... but being Varsity is so friggin cool

Oh Dear

I am feeling a little overwhelmed right now. The overwhelming feeling that I can't do this.

This Friday I have a test in Attention and Performance. I have to rock it because I have not done well on the previous two tests.

This Tuesday and next Wednesday I have:

1. Social Cognition Quiz (2%)
2. Social Cognition Research Propsal is Due (35%)
3. Law and Psychiatry Test (25%)
4. Legal Regualtion of Morality Paper (40%)

Oh Dear.

Really starting to panic here.

Decisions

I have to decide if I want to go to a fencing tournament on Sunday. The problem is I also have a paper diue that Tuesday.... and a two assignements... and a test... oh my I so cannot go to the tournament. But I want to. And I really feel like I am letting everyone down by not going. Mild Panic Attack in progress.

Halloween Weekend

Friday Night brought the awesome floor party. Four of us got together and went as Teen Girl Squad from homestarrunner (www.homestarrunner.com look under toons). Because I have curtly hair and glasses I was of course stuck being the ugly one. A lot of people did not know what the hell we were, but those who did thought it was awesome.

Saturday night I attended a Dixie Chicks Concert at the ACC with Mike, Lindsay and her friend Stefanie. It was so awesome. They are great in person and now I want to go see their documentary. I have been invited by some friends to go see it on Tuesday, but it depends on how busy I am.

Tonight I was supposed to be walksafing, but they cancelled because they didn't have enough people to fill out the team. So thankfully I got a night off. I got A LOT done. It feels good to start crossing things off my list of things to do.

My computer is having this weird freak out problem. It's shutting down and freezing at random times. And it's really really slow. Painfully slow. I don't know if it needs a new hardrive, motherboard or what. Or maybe just a new computer. Because I can totally afford that... oh wait... I can't.

I had a great meeting with a proffessor today. I was terrified of going to this meeting before, because I had not chosen a topic for the assignment. Then an hour before the meeting I was struck with a brilliant idea. I told her about it and she got all nerdily excited. She said it was a great idea and it combined topics in Social Cognition that are not usually compared.

It was a very good day.

Witty Title

I feel like I am being pulled in a million different directions.

Fencing takes up two nights a week. On top of that there are tournaments every weekend, and I can't make it to all of them meaning that I routinely dissappoint them.

Walksafe is one night a week, except every week they ask if I can cover other shifts as well, but I can't do this often.

Work wants me there more often then I am, except I can't, on top of that I have to start booking off shifts.

I am not around enough to do a great job being Floor President so I feel like I'm letting everyone down.

On top of all that I have from different groups who get upset because I can't see them all the time.

And oh yheah, classes, something about 5 classes with a heavy university work load.

Oh and WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO NEXT YEAR????????????

On the upside we had a floor party last night that was a big success. Almost the whole building showed up and had fun.

Frustrated

Tomorrow is our floor pub. As president I am in charge of running it and making sure everything goes well, I am obligated to be there.

This weekend is my first fencing tournament. I will be in Queens all weekend, having fun, but not studying.

I was invited out last night by my fencing peeps, I declined so that I could get work done. I was invited to go out dancing tonight, I really want to go, but I can't afford to lose another night of studying.

Basically I'm grumpy because I don't get to go out and go dancing with my friends and get drunk.... call me a spoiled child, but I want to party with my friends.

Damn my popularity.

Things to Do

Things to Do Today:

- Study for my Social Cognition Quiz tomorrow
- Book our floor pub next week
- Fill out form for Deans office
- Prep for my meeting with my proffessor tomorrow
- Write the paper that is due Wednesday for my Legal Regulation of Morality Class (20%)
- Study for my Law and Psychiatry Test on Wednesday (25%)
- Walksafe
- Update my wall calendar to October

I'm a little freaked out

Hit on Telephonically

While at workon Sunday I recieved a phone call.

Me: Christine, Customer Service
Man: You are just the person I want to talk to.... can I be bold?
Me: Ummm..... ok
Man: How old are you?
Me: 21
Man: Oh that's too young... see I was going to ask you out in the store.... but I was too shy. You're really very pretty. So I figured I'd call
Me: I see... thank you.
Man: Yeah it's too bad because you're very pretty. Well enjoy you're day!
Me: you too.....
End of Call

My manager then walks by...

Me: Fred... I just got hit on over the phone
Fred: That's because he can't see you... Ha!
Me: I hate you

Sorting life out

I've enjoyed my first two weeks at school. My classes are phenomenal, heavy readings but that is normal for crim and psych. I like most of my proffessors, only one seems a little odd, I'm going to have to see how she works out.

I'm on the varsity fencing team which is quite the awesome. My legs hurt a lot but I've met a lot of great people.

Just for fun, here's a list of things I never get around to doing:

1. Organizing my music by genre so I can listen to mood appropriate music
2. Figuring out what I want to do when I grow up
3. Filling out my picture frames
4. Labelling the back of pictures so years later they will still hold relevance

And a whole bunch of other stuff.

Open Letter to Justin Timberlake

Dear Justin Timberlake,

You are not bringing sexy back. I have been here this whole time.


Thank you,
Christine

2006-2007

I start classes on Monday. Well I don't have class on Monday so technically I start Tuesday, but I move in Sunday night. Most of my stuff got moved in yesterday. I'm going down Wedensday to get it all set up, so that when I get dropped off Sunday night I will have nothing at all to worry about.

My vacation was amazing! I spent so much time on the beach I tanned a nice brown. I also got to watch tutrles hatching, that was pretty damn amazing.


OK this was meant to be longer, but I am really frickin sleepy.

Vacation

OK so you might think that title is referenincing the fact that I have not been blogging or blog reading for awhile. While this is true, it is actually in regards to the fact that I leave for vacation for a week. I leave tomorrow! I'm headed to a beach house for a week of fun and sun. I will come back tanned and relaxed.

I took out 9 books for the trip. Only to discover I have already read one. This is dissapppointing butI shall survive.

Oh! for all those wondering if you should go see "The Descent" go see it. It's completly and utterly terrifying. I slept with the light on the night after I saw it. Well I saw half of it. My left eye was covered the whole time.

Weddings are awesome

A friend from work got married on Friday. A bunch of us from work went. It was amazing. Kristen (the bride), was beautiful. Her dress was amazing and so were the bridesmaids' dresses. The building where they had their reception was very elegant and romatntic in a magical sort of way. All together it was a great wedding.

We had an insane amount of fun at the reception. We discovered that there are two things that should not mix: "Open Bar" and "Canadian Tire". Other than the designated drivers, we all had a lot to drink. No one was embarrassingly drunk though, nobody threw up or made a scene, we just had a lot of fun. We danced the entire night. And most importantly I got fantastically hit on. The DJ asked for my number and the bartender asked if I had a boyfriend. That's right the DJ AND the bartender. Apparently I am awesome at weddings.

Waiting

I am currently waiting to go out. Me and assorted friends from work are going out drinking, well they are drinking, I am the designated driver. I am waiting for the phone call that says it's time to go.

to kill time, movie reviews:

Transamerica
Some friends and I rented Transamerica while I was downtown. The movie was amazing. It was funny but dealt very honestly with the tough issue of gender disphoria. I highly recommend this movie.

Over the Hedge
I have officially seen this movie twice, and it was hilarious both times. Go see it. Now. Go go.

The Break Up
A decent movie. Not the hilarious movie the commericals make it out to be. It was more of a thought provoking look at a painful breakup. I enjoyed it, but I felt that the ending could have been more uplifting.

That is currently all I can remember about movies seen thus far.

Life is good, and hilarious

Life is good here in my world. Work is going well, I make it downtown regularly and I have travel plans. The only drawback is that summer is going too far.

I wanted to share a story from work:

A customer turned a cell phone in to us at customer service, someone had lost it in the store.

20 minutes later (after unsuccesfully searching for a 'Home' contact entry) a man arrived asking if anyone had turned in a cell phone, after describing it he had it returned and this ensued:

CS girl: "You should really include your home phone number in your phone, so if someone finds it they can call and tell you"
Man: "I haven't had a chance yet, the phone's brand new. I got it two days ago because I lost my last one."

Not a good track record.

Somewhere along the way, I became a girl

Previously I was never much for shoes, but latelyI have developed a penchant for them. What follows is a recent thought process:

"Hmmmmm..... these shoes are hurting my feet, I mean really seriously hurting my feet, excrutitatingly painful really, it's good that I only bought the blue ones and not the powder pink ones as well......... oooooh the powder pink ones were cute... I wonder if they're on sale now"

Friday Night

Jocelyn and I attended a movie this evening. Over the Hedge, and it was awesome. I would reccomend it to anyone and everyone.

We also went to Chapters, oooooh Chapters. Jocelyn and I should not be allowed to go there.... we bought many books. Well she bought a few books, and I bought 1. A book filled with such awesomeness I cannot even describe it here. But I will try.

It is an illustrated True Crime Book. Pictures!!! Pictures of Kennedy getting shot, pictures of the Son of Sam. Pictures of Bonnie and Clyde!!! And a synopsis of all the assorted crimes! I am so excited.

Conversation with a Customer

A customer wanted to buy a fishing liscense yesterday, here is the conversation that ensued:

Man: I think my card is expired can I get a new one.
Me: It's not expired so I can issue you a sticker which is cheaper
Man: The card is not expired?
Me: No so I can issue you a sticker
Man: The card is not expired so you can issu me me a sticker
Me: Ummmm...... yes..... did you want a conservation sticker? It's really all you need to fish.
Man: Conservation sticker... it's really all you need to fish.
Me: Yes.......?
Man: I will take one please
LONG TIME PASSES OF HIM REPEATING EVERYTHING I SAY
Me: That will be 13.50
Man: 13.50?
Me: (barely restraining urge to kill the man twice just because he won't understand the first time) yes!

The man was not mentally handicapped, he was just completely and utterly annoying.

forgot to mention

I forgot to mention that my phone works fine now.

It is kind of late. I do not know what time it is because O I am not wearing myy glasse. I litterallly cannot read the words on this screen. So any typos are as a result of that.,

I've tried sushi. I have injested squid.

I'm sleepy.

So maybe it's been awhile

I've writeen 2 of four exams. I finish May 1oth. May 10th people!!! That's forever from now.

I just have to write Crime and Gender and Intro to Learning, two classes that sport what we call a 'cumultive exam'. No good.

The exam I wrote on Friday was interesting. Our proctor told us we couldn't have cell phones or ipods or anything on our desks. Shortly after finishing this speech HIS cell phone rang. AND THEN HE TOOK THE CALL. This happened three times. Someone suggested that maybe his cell phone was the official one they give out to proctors so they can communicate quickly. Except during his first call he had this to say:
"Hi..... nothing much....."

Nothing much??? yes you're doin something buddy... you're proctoring my damn exam! Sheesh.
The other great part of the exam was when I asked to go to the bathroom the female proctor asked me if I knew where it was, when I said yes she said I could go right ahead. I don't think she understood that the reason she is supposed to escort me is not to prevent me from getting lost, but so that I won't cheat. In the bathroom was a few people who had finished their exam... they were now going through their textbooks..... damn my morals!

Where to live

I have to sort out where to live next year. I did not get the donship I applied for, nor did I get into the co-op house I applied to. Currently it looks like I am going to be living in residence. I can't decide which building to live in. I can't decide if I should stay in the same building that I am living in now or move to another one. If I move to another one, I'm not sure which one. I have to decide by Wednesday.

In a tragic event my phone perished on Wednesday night. It needs to be replaced. There are currently many road blocks to this. It's quite stressful because I cannot figure out which phone to get, when to get it or which plan I should use. Plus there is the stressful fact that I do not have a phone. I am currently going through withdrawl.