Freddy

I am worried about the mental stability of my fish. It is coming up on his one year anniversary with me. He doesn't seem to want to eat anymore and he just swims aggressively around his bowl or he sleeps. He also stopped making bubble nests, therefore he does not feel like he's worthy of attracting a mate. Maybe he has finnally realized that his world is less than 3 feet square. That would upset me.

Beach thoughts

Every day when I am coming home, either from work or from being out with friends, I want to keep heading past my house and go straight to the beach. But I never do. Because I am too tired, or I have too much to do. Today I realized that that is what is standing in the way of me getting things done. Believing that I don't have enough time to do something, and that I can always do it later, is costing me awesome experiences right now.

So today, after going out to dinner with a former co-worker, I went to the beach. I love the sight of the sun setting, and the night was so crisp, it felt easy to breathe. On the beach there was a little boy who waved at everyone he walked by and everyone waved back. On the way back from the beach I walked past a bar that had live music and no windows. Two men on guitar were playing "Don't Worry, Be Happy" and the song filled the street. I wandered over and one of the guitarists waved to me. I went home in a much better mood than I had been in all day.

Wedding Today

Heading out to a wedding today. Usually I love weddings, and I have been very excited about this wedding. Yesterday it felt like today was filled with magic. Now I am just nervous, I am not sure why.

I have loved my week off. It feels like it has been longer. It feels like it has been forever since I was in my life downtown. It has given me a break from my routine, which is good. I get lost in my routines, working hard to maintain them, without realizing that the routines, while maintaining me are not improving me.

I think I have come away from this with a little more clarity.

So I really do hate my internet connection

I apologize for not posting more often. I am really not amused with Rogers. They kinda really suck. They have replaced the cable that runs to our apartment to give us internet, this was expected to fix everything. It has fixed nothing as far as we can tell. This has been most frustrating. When I am online all I can really do is check my email and facebook before I get too frustrated. To send an email it usually cuts out about 5 times. And then if I hit send it cuts out and then it doesn't remember what I wrote. By the time I get around to blogging I am just too frustrated.

The painting went great! The blue really came out well, and I did not end up needing stencils. I found words that you can apply to the wall (kind of like stickers) and then remove when I move. The room feels a bit more like me now.

I am on vacation this week. I am out enjoying the sun. Or I will be. today it was rainy.

There is more I am sure, but right now I am sleepy

Painting Day!

Today my Dad is coming over to help me paint my room. And by help me paint I mean my Dad will probably end up doing most of the work.

I am excited, this means I will finnally be able to put more pictures up. Although I haven't found stencils yet like I wanted to put near the top of my wall, but I will.

I had been avoiding painting because I was afraid that I would choose the wrong colour and would hate it. Then I realized that a life lived in fear is a life half lived. Well I didn't so much realize that as much as I watched Strickly Ballroom

freak out

I am currently experincing one of those freak outs that starts about one thing in particular and then rapidly becomes about how you have wasted your whole entire life and it is too late now because everyone else is so vastly far ahead in every facet (from life choices to ability to pick the type of kleenex) that it is just better if you give up entirely. (the 'you' in that paragraph was obviously a figurative you and not you, but if you read it like that perhaps you also need to start meditating).

While being envious of everyone's everything I am simultaneously dissappointed in an all encompassing everything. My crappy internet that cannot stay linked for more than 5 minutes, my landlord who does not fix anything except really really bad smelling food. The courier service at work who can't seem to understand the concept of overnight and of course the sheer existence of other people.

It has been a bit of an angry day today.

Please though do not think I include your existence in the category of "things that are making me angry" unless it is you who is making my internet cut out (or if it is you that is making fish for the third night in a row below me) I love each and every last one of you.

Yeah sometimes I still blog

I wish I was more creative. Or I am creative but I am not sure where my niche is. Maybe I should start playing the cello. Is that even how you spell that?

I am out of things right now.

Shoes

I bought shoes! I finnaly found shoes that are cute, durable, and comfortable. They were even under a hundred dollars! Actually my Mom found them, she and I went shopping and after being dragged to many a store so that I could look at all the shoes in the store (every store) my Mom was able to identify the perfect pair of shoes! I am so excited.

I really really wish I had a copy of that song 'New Shoes' it would be so very apporopriate. I am so excited.

There is currently the biggest house centipede in my sink. I am freaking out. I think it may eat me.

Do it Now

Everyone, please go and clean out your fridge. If you are sitting there thinking that you do not need to clean out your fridge, that you know the exact contents of your fridge and when you bought it, you most of all need to clean out your fridge. If you are thinking that there is nothing growing mold in your fridge, you are wrong, there are at least three things growing mold in your fridge. And that hummus that Heather gave you that you thought you had finished weeks ago, is growing no less than four different types of mold.

On the upside, your fridge will be mold free and oh so roomy.

Friday Night

I went to a fantastic party last night, one of those that makes me think that I will look back on this time in my life with incredible fondness. It was being hosted by a few people that I had lived with for a couple years who then moved out and got an apartment together. It was two of their birthdays plus a little graduation party. It was a house party where there were a whole bunch of people who I did not know and who didn't know each other, but it was all cozy anyway. there was meat on the barbeque and a lot of wine and beer (fencing tournament today meant I could not drink). There were two birthday cakes, one of which was dropped on the floor, but still salavagable. By the time the cakes were brought out though there were no more plates left so we all ate cake out of mugs. There were also very few spoons so people started eating wtih spatulas and wooden spoons. There was also roof sitting... but being uncomfortable wtih the amount of drunk people on the tiny, possibly rotting out, roof I stayed inside and played guitar hero.

Yeah, there is something terribly awesome about being in my 20's and having very few responsibilties.

Conundrum

I find it very odd that you can love where you are, but at the same time, miss where you used to be.

Good Life

I had a party last night, with a few great friends all hanging out in one room. I made crepes and brushetta and they were enjoyed by all. Even my friend who doesn't like tomatoe.

Today I spent an hour at the beach reading a book. Tonight I will make and eat one of my favouritest meals, and have dessert of strawberries and whip cream. I will drink red wine. I will wonder why I am so lucky.

Sunscreen

I was out searching for sunscreen today. I have 4 things I am looking for in sunscreen: spf of agt least 30, waterproof, moisturizing and smells nice. I have only found this combo once.... three years ago my Mom bought Suntanicals sunscreen by Banana Boat. I walked around with smooth skin, swimming when I felt like it, smelling good and fending off the sun. That was perhaps the greatest summer ever. The following summer I used the remainder of what I bought the previous summer (I had a few half used bottles because I kept losing the bottle and buying another one). Last summer though, I was not able to buy any more. As far as I can tell they have stopped making it! The only suntanicals sunscreen I can find has SPF 8. I would get more sun protection if I just asked the sun nicely not to burn me.

I tried again today... three stores... all failure... mind you one was a business depot so there wasn't any sunscreen there. I am devastated.

Saturday

I spring cleaned my room today. Cleaned the windows, washed stuff, dusted... even cleaned my fish bowl. Vacuuming occurred. I am now at home with my parents. I just watched the Ruins. It is a terrible movie at the start but it gets much better.

I am very much looking forward to the summer... but it also means that a whole school year has gone by and I haven't really accomplished anything.

Busy Week

Had a surprisingly busy week this week.... well not really that busy, just Monday night and Wednesday night I was out so late that the following day I was too tired to do anything, I just ended up going to bed.

So I haven't really balanced my bank account this week... or cleaned out my emails. I have aboout 47 emails to go through.

It's nice when I am busy, but always in the back of my mind is the steady build up of life maintenace stuff.

Chopstickery

On Friday I ate Japanese food and managed to use chopsticks the whole time! I am insanely proud of this fact. And I tried a lot of new stuff. I am liking this trying new stuff thing. I also got to drive a go cart for the first time ever. It was terrifying at first, but once I realized that I wouldn't die if I was hit, it got cool. I had a great time but I don't think this will become a habit. Very hard to read books while driving a go kart.

I'm thinking of making crepes this week, but I don't really want to go out and buy whip cream. But I have nuttella... maybe I will make rissotto.

I had an awesomely lazy day today. I got a lot of reading done today, which was great. Why did I never manage to do that while in school?

Links

Just noticed that Shashi changed my name to Christine on her blog. Weird.

Titles are hard to think of!

I fenced last night and a girl I fence with regularly (but who has been off because of knee problems) said that I had made some distinct progress! Which is awesome, because I have been trying harder!

There are 3 tournaments in April, but schedule wise I can't make it to any of them. The one I really want to go to is on the same day as a close family friend's birthday party, so that blows. I think tonight I will have to choose one and then schedule around that.

This Saturday, other than lunch with my brother and Yvonne, I have to go to the mall because the boots I bought at the start of February have a whole in them. This is very sucky because I spent an a lot on them so Iwould finnnaly have quality boots, instead of having to replace them every year. Now I have to see if I can return them, and what if they don't have any boots left in stock? What do I do then??

I have also been looking into buying Puma shoes, but their website is horribly un-navigatable.

Today was a good day! Maybe because I spent yesterday at the Career Centre 'Exploring my Options' so I am starting to realize that there is hope for a future. Could you take me seriously as a life coach? It was in the section I was looking in. Would people go to a 24 year old life coach? What knowledge could I possibly have? I could show people where to get on the subway so you get off at just the right spot... but only for some stops.

Sound Effects

On Friday my parents and I spent a day at a conservation area. Part of it was a tour of a created Native Canadian community. One lady who gave us a tour was so excited, and had so much knowledge about what she was telling us that she spoke in sound effects. I would love to have so much passion for something, that I could speak in sound effects.

Sometimes it feels like I will never accomplish anything. I don't even seem to have an interest in anything job like.... or any sort of passion. Actually I currently have a few passions. I shall list them:

1. Olive Oil
2. The smell of cucumbers
3. The colour light green and pale pink
4. Spring
5. Tulips
6. The idea that perhaps... maybe... I might have a future.

I feel like I am looking for inspirations.. something. But very little seems to spark anything.

Weekend

This whole weekend it has felt like summer. Heat more than warmth. I've wanted to wear tank tops and skirts. Running shoes instead of winter boots. I look forward to wandering around in the city without gloves and a coat and a scarf. I look forard to lying on the beach and reading. Drinking red wine with the windows open. Eating on patios. Warm nights, long warm nights. I love the summer.

I will buy a beach towel soon. And new running shoes that will last more than two months (Screw you payless). And I will explore restaurants in the Cheapeats book Heather gave me. Like we did today, very good food with nice atmosphere, Heather is a very good restaurant picker.

I am in love with pesto, and olive oil right now.

Subway Ride

Since daylight savings time I have been able to enjoy a different view out of the subway window (it's actually more of a monorail). I catch the end of sunrise, where things are a soft pink instead of the intense reds and oranges (which I love). I was looking at it and thought that THAT colour was dusty rose, not the horendous colour of all of my high school furninture. Then I realized that the sunrise was more of a powder pink, that was dusted on the sky, it itself was not dusty.

Morning

Last night I had a party and a couple of my friends slept over. In the morning around 5 am we had to go move my friend's car so she wouldn't get a ticket. The world was quiet and the snow was freshly plowed. As it turns out 5 am is very peaceful.

We got back to my apartment and it was very calming to know that two of my close friends were sleeping in my apartment all cozy and warm. I watched the sunrise through the window, life is good.

Two people came in my work to have a meeting with our product manager. Right as they were about to tell me who they were looking for one of my co-workers began singing happy birthday over the intercom for someone who's birthday it was that day. The two guests looked at each other, and then started singing along. One even gave a 'Cha cha cha' at the end of the song. I love people who are willing to play along.

Remembering things differently

I did not have the easiest second year in university. When I refer to second year I tend to refer to it as 'The Year My Life Imploded' even though I do not think that is the proper use of the word 'imploded'.

This evening my roommate and I were looking through pictures on her computer from that year, and I realized that it was a really really good year. Despite everything that happened, I had a great time. I met a lot of friends that I am still really close to now. It was a year that I felt like family with a lot of the people I lived with. I think from now on, I should start looking at it as the year things changed, mostly for the better.

Family Day

I am currently in love with the show 'How I met your Mother'. Mike lent me the first season and it is awesome. I suggest that everyone goes out and watches it right now.

I spent today at work, despite the famiy day nature of today. I was cleaning out files because our offices are moving buildings. Is it sad that I am very excited to set up my new desk? Cause I think it's kinda sad. Seriously, I need something a bit beyond what I currently look forward to.

Fence Fence!

Because I commute in from work I usually arrive late at fencing. Normally I come in halfway through the warm up/muscle strengthening. Whenever I join in everyone else is all worn out, so simple things like leg lifts make them groan in pain, this has the tendency to make me cocky. Today I worked out to this guy who is built, and he was exhausted, I thought that I was a total animal because I could do three push ups in the time it took him to do one. I quickly ran out of steam.

Morning Review (at night)

Since the days have been getting shorter I have noticed an interesting phenomenon. I wake up before the sunrise and go to bed before the sunset, but I never notice either happening. That has made me kind of sad for a while, to be so caught up in my scheduals and lists and thinking and drudgery that I don't notice something as simple, and as beatiful, as the sunrise.


This morning, I saw the sunrise. And it was beautiful and orange and glowed. It made me happy.

Beautiful Things

I made dinner for my roommate for two nights in a row. I made brushetta and pizza last night and tonight I made brushetta (I really like brushetta) and egg plant parmasean. It was funny on Saturday night because we were out of regular cheese, so all we had was camenbare to put on the pizza. It tasted great, but what kind of people have to settle for camenbare?

I cleaned my fish all on my own today, this was a huge step as every other time I needed someone there to spot me while doing it. This is probably because the first time I did it Freddy hopped out and landed on the counter. I was understandably paralyzed with fear and my roommate had to rescue him. I am pretty sure that I lost about 4 years of my life in that moment. Hopefully it will have been the years wherein I have a terrible hair style and look terrible in pictures.

New Years etc.

I am not doing very well with this whole post more often thing. It was a new years resolution to post more and to write in my diary more. Maybe I just need to get in the habit. I also need to work on being less intimidated by Shashi's blog. No one can equal her ability to write on anything and make it interesting.

I think my life needs both more reflection and dreaming. I am getting all caught up in the cycle of chores in life. I am accomplishing nothing but tiny goals right now, nothing long term. For example I am happy when I manage to do laundry and get it all folded and put away. But there is nothing really long term about that. What happened to my volunteering? Where is my career research? I miss looking forward to things. Looking forward to accomplishing something big. In school you could always look forward to the end of the year, and past that graduation. I had a goal then. Now it seems I am living for nothing in particular. Don't get me wrong I love living, never known anything else really, but one cannot live for the two week sheet washing rotation (on the other weeks I wash white clothes).

Getting things done

So for some reason I am in the mood to get things done today. Since returning from work here is what I have accomplished:

- Done all of my laundry
- Ripped 15 CDs to my computer.
- Balanced my cheque book (ha I do that now)
- Vacuumed my room
- Cleaned out my purse
- Cleaned out my email
- Fed the cat
- Put away my roommate vegtables

See, I am awesome. The only issue is that I have yet to make dinner. It is 10. I have not eaten yet.

I am hungry.

Western

I am heading out to London this weekend to visit Jo Mike and Ryan. I am really excited to see them. I am also really excited because now I have these new travel cases for things like makeup and toiletry stuff. I got them for Christmas from my brother's girlfriend Yvonne. The cases are really cute and I want to travel more so they should come in handy. There is this travel jewllery holder that I found online and it's really pretty and would match, but I can't legitimize buying it because I have one from a long time ago. These are the thoughts that go through my head while I'm filing.

I find that I don't post often on this blog because I always feel pressure to say something valuable. And I also find that when I start writing all my thoughts become disjointed. Perhaps if I post more my thoughts will actually flow.

Goals

I think it is time that I start solidly outlining my goals and pursuing them. Some may call these 'new years resolutions', but I want to look more long term. Career wise, and in my personal life. Perhaps I will volunteer at a food bank. Maybe volunteering would make me less self involved.

I am currently strugilling with an organizational problem, I have too many lists. I like making list, lists of what to buy, what to accomplish, books I want to read, goals. But where do I put all these lists?

In other news, I bought bamboo! And I am so very excited.

I made a succesful dinner!

I am slowly learning to cook! I made brushetta tonight, with ingredients that I picked up while wandering through the grocery store. And I added to sauce that I bought at an Italian bakery.

I have a good life here, but it seems that I definetly need to start working on progressing. Finding a career, a life path. Something that will at the very least allow me to pay off my school debts, and travel to Europe.

I love the books I am reading and lying around listening to jazz music, and feeling so very pretentious.

Finding a Job

I was recently told by a financial advisor that I need to find a new job. He seems to think that my degree should be used for something. So I need to apply what I learned in school to finding a future.

Things I am Qualified to Do Because of the Vast Amounts of TV I watched During my Degree

- Cause the accused to break down and admit to his crimes during cross examination
- Perform invasive surgery under the worst of conditions
- Score the winning touch down in the Big Game
- Model and make it fierce
- Personal Trainer and Nutritionist in such a way that I will change your LIFE
- Make out with a close personal friend and have it end badly
- Make out with a close personal frined and have it end well
- Sell drugs and murder some people
- Re-decorate people's homes while not listening to any of their opinions
- Flipping Houses for fun and profit
- Fondly remember my days as a child star

Oh yes my future is just waiting to begin.

Sunday=Snow Day

Today is Sunday and it is so snowy that I have decided to stay inside and accomplish little to nothing.

Currently I am thinking that I may paint my room (not today, as it is a snow day). My room right now is all white from when the last occupents occupied it. I thought before that I was happy with the white but now I can't stand it. I'm thinking of a slate blue with a navy blue rag technique over it.

But maybe that would be too much blue. I have a lot of blue stuff so that may be a lot....

I made pizza last night! From scratch! Well the dough was from scratch, I did not make the sauce nore did I milk the cow for the cheese. But now I made pizza! It is so nice to add something to my dinner options, other than pasta.

The Last 24 Hours

So in the last 24 hours the following has occurred in my life:

• I deeply cut my thumb (including the nail) while cutting bread
• I stubbed my pinky toe so hard that it is now swollen and purple
• I got a paper cut on my pinky finger (not that bad, but those are always upsetting)
• Discovered that my apartment has developed some sort of a plumbing back up. The Bidday (which we don't use, because we are disturbed by it), overflows whenver water goes through the kitchen sink, or the toilet. I am willing to presume that this affliction also affects the shower and the bathroom sink. Awesome.

I have ordered Swiss Challet.

Rissotto

OK so I just made some rissotto. It did not really go well. The rissotto does not taste horrible. Which, if I ever open a restaurant, is what all my menu items will have as their descriptor.

My gas stove apparently does not work. Well 1 element works, which is not so helpful when you are supposed to be simmering while you are stirring something else.

New Place

All right I haven't blogged in awhile. I've been busy. Starting my new job and working out what it's like to live on my own.

I am starting to cook, today I made crepes for a dinner party. Everyone really liked them. On Tuesday I will be making rissotto. Maybe soon I won't have to spend so much money on pre-made meals.

I'm sorting things out at work, but now that everything is sorting out I now have to start sorting out my future. And that is pretty damn scary.

Jobiriffic

Well I officially have a job. I am a receptionist. I HAVE A JOB! Yay! I also signed my lease yesterday. I have the startings of what some people call 'a life'.

I will be working every other weekend at Canadian Tire, until I reach the point that I just can't take it anymore. We are currently very close to that point. Staying on at Canadian Tire will allow me to offset some of the start up costs of a new apartment and a new job. For example, I have no clothes that I can wear to work. I also don't own a toaster. What kind of human being does not own a toaster?

On the upside my new job is far enough away that I need a metro pass. So I will be able to visit everybody..... for free!

Back from vacation

I have officialy returned from a week in North Carolina.. The vacation was great, a whole lot of being lazy.

I had a job interview this morning, a position with the visitor's centre at my university. Sadly though the position would only exist until December. A pickle, but far better than nothing.


In other news: I don't think people should be allowed to use the term 'monies' .

This time I will actually mention Posh Spice

So I am kind of excited about living in the beaches. I am a little scared thous that it will get taken.

The rooms aren't huge but the neighbourhood is fantastic. It's a walk to get to the bus, to get to the subway to get to the rest of Toronto. It would mean the extra expense of buying a metro pass, but then I would own a metro pass! This could change everything, in a good way.

In other news, I totally loved the posh spice reality tv show. I had always kind of felt indifferent towards her, I mean she was the spice girl I had the least in common with. But I learned that we could totally be pals. She is hilarious, feels awkward, and gets drunk when she feels uncomfortable. Good times.

Posh Spice

I am currently looking at moving downtown. This is a huge decision. My friend and I have found a nice place in the beaches. My friend went and saw it the other day, but I had to miss the appointment for fencing. She said it's amazing. But it's a bit of a trip from the subway. When I lived in residence the subway stop was at the end of my very short one way street. At this house I would not be living that close to the stop, plus the stop would not even be on the yellow line, it would be on the green one. Really close to the blue one.... I didn't even know that one exsisited!

On top of that I don't have a job to work at downtown. Therefore I don't have money to pay for, you know, heat and the such.

But the apartment comes with a loft.... that has a nook.... that I hear.... is perfect for reading.

Recent News

I graduated.

home

I am officially home for the summer. Working at Canadian Tire. I am a university graduate and I am still working at the same job I have had since highschool. Something about this, or everything about this really, is very depressing. But on the upside I have a job so I can continue to pay the bills and I do not feel guilty when I go to the occasional movie.

I am looking for jobs, and I have applied to a couple. The unfortunate bit is that I am not very good at this whole job searching thing, but I guess it is something that you learn as you go along.

I am currently hoping to move back downtown in September, but that all hinges on whether or not I will be able to pay this thing called 'rent' and do this thing called 'eat'. Both of these things require that I have a 'job'.

The music reunion is this Saturday, I am excited to see people like Shashi and Heather, and Eve... is Eve going? I am unsure. But anyway there is excitement. But the rest of the people? Not so sure... I mean come one..... the people who I wanted to see past high school I have seen.

Spring

I have developed an obsession with tulips. I really want to buy tulips for my room, as I have a really nice vase and tulips would add a wonderful touch of spring to my room. But I honestly cannot justify the expense. the tulips would only be good for so long, while I could the money towards better things, such as paying off my debt.

I have finished one of 5 final papers. Finishing this paper means I have earned the award of buying new shoes at payless. OOOOoooohhh some new summer shoes. I am very much looking forward to the return of skirt wearing season.

I want to go traveling. But really I don't know how to go about such a thing. First off I cannot afford this, and secondly, where would I stay? I have made a list though of places I would like to travel to once I figure out the minor details.

I am building a book list on Amazon.com of books I plan on reading in the summer. Amonzon. com thinks I intend to buy them, they apparently are unaware of 'libraries'.
Speaking of which, this is pretty much awesome:
http://thenonist.com/index.php/thenonist/comments/3223/

One of them has my most favouritest architectural feature of all time: the spiral staircase. I also enjoy the band.

In other book news, I have downloaded a book by Douglas Adams to my iPod. Now I can enjoy books to and from class! This is much safer than my previous habit of reading while walking.

Oh, and here is what I am debating buying of the internet, I will be a true hit at parties:
http://www.nerdyshirts.com/productdetails.aspx?id=100088760

Why I am reconsidering my lifestyle

Two reasons I am reconsidering my current lifestyle:

1. While on reading week I got to work in plain clothes. I put on a sweatshirt that I had not warn for a couple months. On the way to work I could not figure out why the car smelled like pizza. Then work smelled like pizza. Then I realized it was my sweatshirt, unwashed for 2 months.

2. At work we sell this garbage can that smells like eucalyptus. I smelled it and my first thought was "I'd throw up in that".

Musings

I find myself wishing lately that I was extraordinary.

Clint Eastwood

I was in class today and overheard the following comments :

Girl: "Clint Eastwood, is that the guy from Million Dollar Baby?"

My response: "Clint Eastwood is not from Million Dollar Baby. Clint Eastwood is not from anywhere. He's fucking Clint Eastwood! Million Dollar Baby is that movie that has Clint Eastwood in it."

Of course I did not say that out loud. That would be rude.

Drag Show

For a friend's stagette we went to a gay bar tonight. And saw the greatest drag show ever. Totally beats the drag race I saw in Montreal. Miss Heavenly Heights and Miss Farenheight. Awesome.

I wonder what I am to them.

U of T is big, a no fooling kind of big. But come fourth year I havce realized that despite this bigness there are many people that I recognize. From classes, to residence to the dining hall, there are people that I recognize.

There's that guy who always wears too much cologne and who I don't like riding the elevator with.

There's that guy who's really noisy in the dining hall but I respect him because he's always very careful in making a salad.

There's that guy who is in my crim and psych classes, he's always 10 minutes late to everything, including the exams, and always seems genuinely surprised that we started without him.

There is that girl who has really great makeup and who's waist is about the size of my thigh, I always wonder how her internal organs fit inside her.

There is the guy from my psych classes, who wears the really soft leather coat, and who laughs whenever I make comments to myself about things that I find humourous in class.

Or that guy I pass on my way too and from classes, we seem to be on the opposite schedual, I'm always leaving whenever he's coming back, and vice versa.

After realizing that my school career has been populated with all these people, I can't help but wonder, what am I to them? Do they notice me? How do they remember me? Probably the curly hair. Or do they notice that I always walk in one minute before class? Do they notice that I am braver now and talk in class? Just makes me wonder.

Exhausted

I went to the gym this morning. I am severely exhausted. I was hoping that exercising would give me more energy, but right now I am completly wiped out.

I had a fencing tournament on Saturday. U of T hosted it so it was very convienient. I placed 13 out of 16, I think that's pretty damn good considering this is my first year fencing. I am quite proud of the progress I have made.

I wish I had a goal. Or a dream or a something. I feel kinda directionless right now. My whole life the plan has been to go to highschool and then university. I have done that, and that's now coming to a close. So I don't really have anything beyond that. So I'm looking around, trying to find a goal, trying to find something that I want to do, or work towards. Something.

New Semester

I've had the first week of classes and they all seem pretty good so far. I will have a few major papers and a couple small ones. I havce mostly psych this semester and one crim class. I may actually be able to do well this semester.
I was at a fencing tournament this weekend, and I actually beat people!!! I won a total of 3 bouts, which is 3 better than I've ever done! I was also warned by a ref that I was too violent. That's pretty awesome. Our team ended up coming fourth, which means no metal, but we all fenced really really well. It was a great time.

Finished Two Tests

I have finished two tests today, which means I am done with two courses. Usually I get very excited as the Christmas Break approaches, it is a little different this year. I guess the difference comes in that it, and everything else, is tinged by the word 'last'. This is my last Christmas break, next semester will be my last semester.

All this amounts to me feeling like I am running out of time. I feel like I am running out of time to enjoy what is happening right now and I am running out of time to prepare for what will happen after.

I have no idea what I am doing next, but it feels like I need a little time off. Time to work at paying my debt, time to think about stuff before getting into anything big. But applying for internships and different jobs will take time I just do not seem to have.

Back to studying.

A List of Good Stuff

Ok so I have been a little negative and sad lately, because it's the middle of November. and like any University Student I am feeling like there is way too much to do than what is humanly possible, and I'm not exactly seeing a pay off.

So, to cheer me up... a list of things I am happy about.

1. I have really awesome birthday mittens
2. I had a really great birthday
3. Peter is coming over on Friday for Swiss Challet
4. A friend is coming over on Friday to get a tour of my campus
5. I bought really nice new soft pants
6. I bought 2 new pairs of pants at 9.99
7. A big assignment that has been hanging over my head will be done by Thursday
8. I will be able to go to Thursday night's fencing practice no matter what
9. I have new really soft pajamas to wear
10. I have some great new CDs to listen too
11. my room is wonderfully clean.
12. Prison Break finaled last night so I don't have to keep watching it


OK I feel a little more upbeat now

I want to go to Indigo and wander around for awhile.

I want to go and buy myself birthday pajamas.

I want to eat Swiss Challet with cheesy bread.

I want to nap a little.

I want to read a book, a good book, for awhile, with a candle burning and maybe in the bath.


I want.

ahem...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would really love too...

I would really love to take a warm bath right now and read a book.

Test done

Ok so I wrote my test today. I think it went well.

I have decided to go to a movie tonight so that I can get out of my head and out of my room.

Tomorrow I go home to party it up at the Staff Party

Sunday I am going to the fencing tournament because one assignment got pushed back.

This all seems a little more doable.

Thank you everyone for your support

I am debating now giving up being a Varsity Fencer. I would still fence, but it would mean less commitment... but being Varsity is so friggin cool

Oh Dear

I am feeling a little overwhelmed right now. The overwhelming feeling that I can't do this.

This Friday I have a test in Attention and Performance. I have to rock it because I have not done well on the previous two tests.

This Tuesday and next Wednesday I have:

1. Social Cognition Quiz (2%)
2. Social Cognition Research Propsal is Due (35%)
3. Law and Psychiatry Test (25%)
4. Legal Regualtion of Morality Paper (40%)

Oh Dear.

Really starting to panic here.

Decisions

I have to decide if I want to go to a fencing tournament on Sunday. The problem is I also have a paper diue that Tuesday.... and a two assignements... and a test... oh my I so cannot go to the tournament. But I want to. And I really feel like I am letting everyone down by not going. Mild Panic Attack in progress.

Halloween Weekend

Friday Night brought the awesome floor party. Four of us got together and went as Teen Girl Squad from homestarrunner (www.homestarrunner.com look under toons). Because I have curtly hair and glasses I was of course stuck being the ugly one. A lot of people did not know what the hell we were, but those who did thought it was awesome.

Saturday night I attended a Dixie Chicks Concert at the ACC with Mike, Lindsay and her friend Stefanie. It was so awesome. They are great in person and now I want to go see their documentary. I have been invited by some friends to go see it on Tuesday, but it depends on how busy I am.

Tonight I was supposed to be walksafing, but they cancelled because they didn't have enough people to fill out the team. So thankfully I got a night off. I got A LOT done. It feels good to start crossing things off my list of things to do.

My computer is having this weird freak out problem. It's shutting down and freezing at random times. And it's really really slow. Painfully slow. I don't know if it needs a new hardrive, motherboard or what. Or maybe just a new computer. Because I can totally afford that... oh wait... I can't.

I had a great meeting with a proffessor today. I was terrified of going to this meeting before, because I had not chosen a topic for the assignment. Then an hour before the meeting I was struck with a brilliant idea. I told her about it and she got all nerdily excited. She said it was a great idea and it combined topics in Social Cognition that are not usually compared.

It was a very good day.

Witty Title

I feel like I am being pulled in a million different directions.

Fencing takes up two nights a week. On top of that there are tournaments every weekend, and I can't make it to all of them meaning that I routinely dissappoint them.

Walksafe is one night a week, except every week they ask if I can cover other shifts as well, but I can't do this often.

Work wants me there more often then I am, except I can't, on top of that I have to start booking off shifts.

I am not around enough to do a great job being Floor President so I feel like I'm letting everyone down.

On top of all that I have from different groups who get upset because I can't see them all the time.

And oh yheah, classes, something about 5 classes with a heavy university work load.

Oh and WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO NEXT YEAR????????????

On the upside we had a floor party last night that was a big success. Almost the whole building showed up and had fun.

Frustrated

Tomorrow is our floor pub. As president I am in charge of running it and making sure everything goes well, I am obligated to be there.

This weekend is my first fencing tournament. I will be in Queens all weekend, having fun, but not studying.

I was invited out last night by my fencing peeps, I declined so that I could get work done. I was invited to go out dancing tonight, I really want to go, but I can't afford to lose another night of studying.

Basically I'm grumpy because I don't get to go out and go dancing with my friends and get drunk.... call me a spoiled child, but I want to party with my friends.

Damn my popularity.

Things to Do

Things to Do Today:

- Study for my Social Cognition Quiz tomorrow
- Book our floor pub next week
- Fill out form for Deans office
- Prep for my meeting with my proffessor tomorrow
- Write the paper that is due Wednesday for my Legal Regulation of Morality Class (20%)
- Study for my Law and Psychiatry Test on Wednesday (25%)
- Walksafe
- Update my wall calendar to October

I'm a little freaked out

Hit on Telephonically

While at workon Sunday I recieved a phone call.

Me: Christine, Customer Service
Man: You are just the person I want to talk to.... can I be bold?
Me: Ummm..... ok
Man: How old are you?
Me: 21
Man: Oh that's too young... see I was going to ask you out in the store.... but I was too shy. You're really very pretty. So I figured I'd call
Me: I see... thank you.
Man: Yeah it's too bad because you're very pretty. Well enjoy you're day!
Me: you too.....
End of Call

My manager then walks by...

Me: Fred... I just got hit on over the phone
Fred: That's because he can't see you... Ha!
Me: I hate you

Sorting life out

I've enjoyed my first two weeks at school. My classes are phenomenal, heavy readings but that is normal for crim and psych. I like most of my proffessors, only one seems a little odd, I'm going to have to see how she works out.

I'm on the varsity fencing team which is quite the awesome. My legs hurt a lot but I've met a lot of great people.

Just for fun, here's a list of things I never get around to doing:

1. Organizing my music by genre so I can listen to mood appropriate music
2. Figuring out what I want to do when I grow up
3. Filling out my picture frames
4. Labelling the back of pictures so years later they will still hold relevance

And a whole bunch of other stuff.

Open Letter to Justin Timberlake

Dear Justin Timberlake,

You are not bringing sexy back. I have been here this whole time.


Thank you,
Christine

2006-2007

I start classes on Monday. Well I don't have class on Monday so technically I start Tuesday, but I move in Sunday night. Most of my stuff got moved in yesterday. I'm going down Wedensday to get it all set up, so that when I get dropped off Sunday night I will have nothing at all to worry about.

My vacation was amazing! I spent so much time on the beach I tanned a nice brown. I also got to watch tutrles hatching, that was pretty damn amazing.


OK this was meant to be longer, but I am really frickin sleepy.

Vacation

OK so you might think that title is referenincing the fact that I have not been blogging or blog reading for awhile. While this is true, it is actually in regards to the fact that I leave for vacation for a week. I leave tomorrow! I'm headed to a beach house for a week of fun and sun. I will come back tanned and relaxed.

I took out 9 books for the trip. Only to discover I have already read one. This is dissapppointing butI shall survive.

Oh! for all those wondering if you should go see "The Descent" go see it. It's completly and utterly terrifying. I slept with the light on the night after I saw it. Well I saw half of it. My left eye was covered the whole time.

Weddings are awesome

A friend from work got married on Friday. A bunch of us from work went. It was amazing. Kristen (the bride), was beautiful. Her dress was amazing and so were the bridesmaids' dresses. The building where they had their reception was very elegant and romatntic in a magical sort of way. All together it was a great wedding.

We had an insane amount of fun at the reception. We discovered that there are two things that should not mix: "Open Bar" and "Canadian Tire". Other than the designated drivers, we all had a lot to drink. No one was embarrassingly drunk though, nobody threw up or made a scene, we just had a lot of fun. We danced the entire night. And most importantly I got fantastically hit on. The DJ asked for my number and the bartender asked if I had a boyfriend. That's right the DJ AND the bartender. Apparently I am awesome at weddings.

Waiting

I am currently waiting to go out. Me and assorted friends from work are going out drinking, well they are drinking, I am the designated driver. I am waiting for the phone call that says it's time to go.

to kill time, movie reviews:

Transamerica
Some friends and I rented Transamerica while I was downtown. The movie was amazing. It was funny but dealt very honestly with the tough issue of gender disphoria. I highly recommend this movie.

Over the Hedge
I have officially seen this movie twice, and it was hilarious both times. Go see it. Now. Go go.

The Break Up
A decent movie. Not the hilarious movie the commericals make it out to be. It was more of a thought provoking look at a painful breakup. I enjoyed it, but I felt that the ending could have been more uplifting.

That is currently all I can remember about movies seen thus far.

Life is good, and hilarious

Life is good here in my world. Work is going well, I make it downtown regularly and I have travel plans. The only drawback is that summer is going too far.

I wanted to share a story from work:

A customer turned a cell phone in to us at customer service, someone had lost it in the store.

20 minutes later (after unsuccesfully searching for a 'Home' contact entry) a man arrived asking if anyone had turned in a cell phone, after describing it he had it returned and this ensued:

CS girl: "You should really include your home phone number in your phone, so if someone finds it they can call and tell you"
Man: "I haven't had a chance yet, the phone's brand new. I got it two days ago because I lost my last one."

Not a good track record.

Somewhere along the way, I became a girl

Previously I was never much for shoes, but latelyI have developed a penchant for them. What follows is a recent thought process:

"Hmmmmm..... these shoes are hurting my feet, I mean really seriously hurting my feet, excrutitatingly painful really, it's good that I only bought the blue ones and not the powder pink ones as well......... oooooh the powder pink ones were cute... I wonder if they're on sale now"

Friday Night

Jocelyn and I attended a movie this evening. Over the Hedge, and it was awesome. I would reccomend it to anyone and everyone.

We also went to Chapters, oooooh Chapters. Jocelyn and I should not be allowed to go there.... we bought many books. Well she bought a few books, and I bought 1. A book filled with such awesomeness I cannot even describe it here. But I will try.

It is an illustrated True Crime Book. Pictures!!! Pictures of Kennedy getting shot, pictures of the Son of Sam. Pictures of Bonnie and Clyde!!! And a synopsis of all the assorted crimes! I am so excited.

Conversation with a Customer

A customer wanted to buy a fishing liscense yesterday, here is the conversation that ensued:

Man: I think my card is expired can I get a new one.
Me: It's not expired so I can issue you a sticker which is cheaper
Man: The card is not expired?
Me: No so I can issue you a sticker
Man: The card is not expired so you can issu me me a sticker
Me: Ummmm...... yes..... did you want a conservation sticker? It's really all you need to fish.
Man: Conservation sticker... it's really all you need to fish.
Me: Yes.......?
Man: I will take one please
LONG TIME PASSES OF HIM REPEATING EVERYTHING I SAY
Me: That will be 13.50
Man: 13.50?
Me: (barely restraining urge to kill the man twice just because he won't understand the first time) yes!

The man was not mentally handicapped, he was just completely and utterly annoying.

forgot to mention

I forgot to mention that my phone works fine now.

It is kind of late. I do not know what time it is because O I am not wearing myy glasse. I litterallly cannot read the words on this screen. So any typos are as a result of that.,

I've tried sushi. I have injested squid.

I'm sleepy.

So maybe it's been awhile

I've writeen 2 of four exams. I finish May 1oth. May 10th people!!! That's forever from now.

I just have to write Crime and Gender and Intro to Learning, two classes that sport what we call a 'cumultive exam'. No good.

The exam I wrote on Friday was interesting. Our proctor told us we couldn't have cell phones or ipods or anything on our desks. Shortly after finishing this speech HIS cell phone rang. AND THEN HE TOOK THE CALL. This happened three times. Someone suggested that maybe his cell phone was the official one they give out to proctors so they can communicate quickly. Except during his first call he had this to say:
"Hi..... nothing much....."

Nothing much??? yes you're doin something buddy... you're proctoring my damn exam! Sheesh.
The other great part of the exam was when I asked to go to the bathroom the female proctor asked me if I knew where it was, when I said yes she said I could go right ahead. I don't think she understood that the reason she is supposed to escort me is not to prevent me from getting lost, but so that I won't cheat. In the bathroom was a few people who had finished their exam... they were now going through their textbooks..... damn my morals!

Where to live

I have to sort out where to live next year. I did not get the donship I applied for, nor did I get into the co-op house I applied to. Currently it looks like I am going to be living in residence. I can't decide which building to live in. I can't decide if I should stay in the same building that I am living in now or move to another one. If I move to another one, I'm not sure which one. I have to decide by Wednesday.

In a tragic event my phone perished on Wednesday night. It needs to be replaced. There are currently many road blocks to this. It's quite stressful because I cannot figure out which phone to get, when to get it or which plan I should use. Plus there is the stressful fact that I do not have a phone. I am currently going through withdrawl.

A Couple of Open Letters to Assorted Individuals

Dear Girl Who Sat Next to Me in My Test Today,

When you dropped your Scantron Sheet, and it landed at my feet, there was a reason I didn't pick it up. It was not because I didn't notice until it was too late. It was not because I felt I didn't have enough time to finish the test and therefore couldn't spare the minute it would have taken to lean over and pick it up. It wasn't even because I'm a cold heartless bitch (although you probably now think that I am).

It's because you chose to read every last question on the test outloud to yourself. Including the multiple choice questions and all their possible options.

So don't be mad at me for not picking up your sheet, be happy that I didn't kill you.

Thanks!
-Christine

Dear Person in My Intro to Social Psychology Class,

When the Proffessor said; "80% of marriages end in divorce or seperation"
and you said; "That's over half!"

I was so glad you were there, to blow the lid off that statistic.

I can only hope you use your Powers of the Obvious for good and never for evil.

-Christine

The Day Part of My Brain Died in Shock

I was sitting quitely waiting for my Wednesday morning class to start. I was pretending to read my book, but really I was listening to these three girls have a conversation (the eavesdropping was so not all my fault cause they were really loud). Listening to their conversation I discovered that: Thesis Girl has to present her thesis (hence the name) to a big group of people soon, Waitress Girl is in her late 20s because she takes classes while she waitresses, and that Research girl has a presentation to do. I also discovered that all three of them have been living under some internet rock, probably the same rock Mike K has been living under except his has more bingo.

Here is the conversation that ensued:

Research Girl: I was researching this presentation and the librarian told me to put addition signs in when I search for things
Thesis Girl: Really? Does that help?
Research Girl: Yeah! Cause it means it looks up the one word plus the other word.
Waitress Girl: Wow! That's so neat! I'll use that
Research Girl: Yeah it really helps to narrow stuff down.

At this point my brain was melting. How have these people survived to third year university, how has Thesis Girl managed to prepare a thesis, without being able to Google properly??? Waitress Girl is a very intelligent girl, AND she's hip! Hip people!!! She should be all up on the Google Skillz.

I came home from class and proceded to tell people on my floor this story. I was then shocked to discover that THEY HAD NO IDEA EITHER!!!! I felt like I was in some sort of twighlight zone where it turns out everyone is illiterate but you.

Previously I had always thought that I was a decent Google lookerupper. Turns out I'm awesome, way abover average, I'm going to go as far as saying that my skillz are superb.

You've Come a Long way Baby

Happy Birthday Blog!!!

Today you are one year old.
Thank you for the hilarity you've allowed me to deliver.
Thank you for the steam you have let me blow off by ranting.
Thank you for helping me keep up with my friends.
Thank you for your comment section, that reminds me of everyone out there.
Thank you "I Live in my Head and Sleep in my Bed" your awesome burns stronger than a thousand suns.

In other news; I've had a great week. Last night was amazing because I wrote a test (therefore no more studying) and afterwards went out for cheap martini night. Tonight was wonderful because I ended up going to a sketch comdey show put on by engineering, it was hilarious. Tomorrow will be an enlightening trip to the ROM! I am a dork.

Boggle

I totally downloaded 'Boggle' onto my phone. It has provided me with hours of entertainment, unfortuneatly this has sometimes occured in class. I haven't found 'helipads' yet, but I'm trying.

I really need to buy new shoes for the summer. My current non-winter shoes have no lining left in the heel, so it's just hard plastic, slowly grinding away my feet's will to live.

I also need to buy new jeans, because my favourite pair of jeans finnaly have up the other day. There is no a huge rip in them, in the buttocks region. Meaning that I have to choose; lose the jeans, or lose my dignity.

I have a test tomorrow so the big plan for today is studying. Child Development, why are you so boring sometimes?

Oh! I made myself brushetta on Friday! I'm getting kind of good at this whole 'cooking' thing.

Stuff that sticks in your head

I was walking somewhere the other day and I realized that there is a lot of random stuff that is stuck in my head, that comes up at random times. Unimportant stuff that sits with me and comes up, and I ask myself; "Why in the hell do I still remember that?" I was going to post a long elaborate list of such things that I think of, but right now I can only think of one.

At the end of last school year Whitney (for the uninitiated, Whitney happens to be the younger sister of Angus, but more importantly, she is a very nice and friendly girl) posted in her blog about she was looking forward to in spring. She listed nice warm weather things, like wearing skirts, and I think flip flops also made the list. Now, when I look out the window, I think about her post. I want to wear skirts and flip flops. Tank tops and bathing suits. I'm looking forward to the days when my feet stop being cold on such a permanent basis. Maybe Whitney will think it odd that I, on occasion, read her blog. She will probably think it even more odd that, quite frequently lately, think about what she wrote. Well Whitney, I don't know what to say, other than; I am an odd person.

Angus pointed out the other day, that when I describe people, I describe them as nice. He said to me, people are either nice or not nice. I respond in this fashion because I don't often see a point in articulating more accurately. When asked about Alex I usually respond with; "She's nice, I like her". I was going to list here reasons why I like Alex (to prove to Angus that I have more complex opinions of people) but I realized that Alex may not enjoy such a touchy feely ode to her, so I have cancelled my plans.

Quiet night to wrap it all up

I'm having a quiet night tonight. I'm trying to get rid of this cold that has been following me around since Monday. So tonight I packed up the three laundry baskets full of laundry, cleaned out my email and hung out with Michael. Nice and quiet. Everything is organized for me to go back to school tomorrow, this will make me a lot less stressed tomorrow. I am enjoying a nice conversation with Jon on MSN. I have promised him, that if I die, he gets my iPod. Sorry everyone else who was hoping they had dibs.

I had an excellent reading week. I picked up a couple shifts on top of my usual weekend. I also got to hang out with my parents and Michael a lot. Oh, and coffee with Jon, Randeep and Shaun.

I went to a concert on Wednesday with Mike. We went and saw Jann Arden in Barrie. It was amazing. She's very good in concert, highly hilarious. I was surprised at how funny she was.

On Friday Angus and I went snowboarding. It was great. Painful, but great. I fell, a lot. But near the end I got kinda ok at it.

In summation, the week was great. Which is good, because I will spend the next week in the library for my midterm next week.

yay me

ow

Went snowboarding today with angus. too tired and too sore for proper typing. i hurt. very fun though..... ow. oh jann arden concert on Wed with mike. amazing it was

Naps

Janet asked me awhile ago for some advice about napping. I felt that, as a nap expert, I could give a general note about napping, as a public service.

Tere are many ways to nap, personally when I plan on napping, I go full out and put on pajamas, but that is certainly not required. Sweatpants are more than all right. Anytime is good for naps, but once you get into evening, you may find it hard for you to fall asleep, or the complete opposite you may just sleep clean through to the next morning.

The most important part of napping is to set an alarm. Please do not full yourself into believing that you will wake up after a quick 10 minute nap. You will not. You will wake up three hours later, groggy and confused.

That's the other important thing, a time limit. Through research and personal expereince, 1 hour is a good nap limit. Such a limit usually leaves you feeling refreshed, around the two hour mark you will be groggy. There is an exception though. Say you sleep from 1 till 3. After 6 you will probably start feelig less groggy. So if you need to have a late night, I recommend such a nap.

That's really all you need to know about napping, I hope you all put this info to good use.

MIA

I feel like I have been missing in action. Where this feeling started I do not really know. Maybe it's because I am no longer checking blogs on a daily basis. Maybe it's because I feel like I don't update enough. Maybe it's because I'm never online. I just feel like I've disconnected. Case in point: I had no idea that Angus got a job with Apple. Usually this is information I am up on. But I was not, because of the whole never online thing. Because I've been spending all my time studying and stuff. I am not complaining per se.... really I'm just trying to say that I still care, I do, I'm just doing my best to do well in school.

To all those of you who were worried (and there were many of you), no I did not delete any of you off of MSN. You can all sleep soundly now.

I have heard of this thing MSN Geeks. I am opting not to get it though, sounds like it could become a needless hit to my ego, and I would spend much too long thinking about it.

Things that I miss:
- lying around reading books for fun
- hanging out with Angus, Jon, Randeep and Angus
- talking with Heather online
- wearing skirts

Things I am enjoying:
- That I rocked my Development Test
- Fencing (I'm getting good at lunges)
- Walksafing
- The Tulips I bought myself at work
- the new white mittens I bought myself.

OK so that's all for now.

wooooooo

I could not come up with a better title, so I went with woooooooooo. Deal with it.

I rocked a test last night. I was worried because it seemed really easy, I was wondering if there was something I was missing, like that time in grade 9 english, when I was done in like 20 minutes and it turned out the question that I answered with 2 sentences was actually an essay question.
A bunch of people started leaving early so I decided that I hadn't missed anything and the test was just that good.

I delted someone off of MSN today, a surprisingly liberating experience.

Tonight is perhaps the greatest night of the year. It is called; The Chocolate Buffet. $3 gets you in. There is no end to the chocolate. It's a room filled with multiple kinds of chocolate; many different cakes, chocolate fondue, chocolate bars, lindt chocolate, smarties, ferro roche, fudge.... everything. And all the profist go to Out of the Cold. So really I have to go, it's the chairtable thing to do.

I have three tests next week and a paper I would like to finish. So there will be much studying.

Assorted rambles and thoughts.

I have a developmental psychology test to study for. Quite frankly I'm not feeling it right now, I really just want to lie around and do nothing.

I haven't taken a nap since last Saturday!!! My goal for this week was not to nap, and quite frankly I have done well for myself.

I got a haircut today. It was my first tie having my hair cut by a man. He was quite fun, although he lectured me that you should never wait two years to get a hair cut. He only took like half an inch off, and apparently he added some layers. Whatever, it went up in a pony tail like 20 minutes after he did it, because he didn't put in enough gel to stop me turning into a fuzzy poof ball.

I also bought new shoes today... they're pretty. I believe I will wear them to my friends concert tonight.

This week

It has been a really good week. I guess I should start with Sunday to truly make this a week in review.

Sunday I got reflexology done on my feet. They massage your feet and put pressure on them to help fix assorted ailments on your body. A friend of a friend is training for it and needs to practice on people, I graciously stepped up, and took a free foot massage for the team.

On the same day I hooked my friend up with a statcounter for the website she runs for our college, she, and the whole student council of our college apparently, thinks it's amazing. They have been quite happy to find out that people are actually using the site. I like being helpful.

Monday was of course my glorious walksafe shift, wherein we got only 1 walk! (See previous post).

Tuesday I donated blood. It made me all sleepy and dizzy but it was still fun. Peter and I watched "March of the Penguins" while donating. This movie is pretty much the saddest movie ever. Don't by fooled by the people who tell you it's about love and happiness.... it is not.

Tuesday was also my first fencing class. Thereby making Tuesday super cool. My instructor is an adorable no nonsense kind of guy. He kind of scares me, but he can teach me about the joys of fencing, so I've decided to fear and revere him.

Wednesday was quite busy with three classes. And my presentation!!! It went ok I think, I just have to wait to get the marks back.

Thursday brought the second fencing class of the week. I got to use to the foil!!! I wore the mask and the vesty thing. It was amazing!! So much fun. Thursday night I hung out at a friends house where a bunch of us watched two episodes of CSI. I don't want to spoil the episodes for anyone who taped it but... there were dead bodies. It's true! I am not making this up.

Lets see if Friday and Sat will be as fun.

Just some thoughts

I'm wondering if I should work on making a regular sleep pattern. Cause I'm all over the map and that just can't be good. I'm constantly sleepy, I think it's a mixture of my low ironness and the fact that my body has no idea when it can expect sleep. Both of these issues need to be rectified, because I am tired of napping.

I had a great time walksafing last night, while out on our travels my partner and I ran into three or four of my friends while out on campus. My walksafe partner now thinks I'm miss populairity. We only had one walk last night, while the other team had 4. It was very much us being in the right place at the right time, we were on break when the other team got stuck with two of their walks. I've officially decided that joining walksafe was one of my better ideas. Not only have I made new friends, but I also get exercise. I also know my way around campus now, which is good. And I know where most of the campus libraries are, which has got to be helpful later for something.

I voted! It was great. I will admit I hadn't intended to vote, I thought I was much too busy. But yesterday afternoon I decided I had some time, and who doesn't love democracy? So I voted and it made me feel pretty good.

Tomorrow I have a class presentation to do for my Self & Society Class (a look at how defintions of the self and society changed through the renaissance). This will be my first presentation in my university career. I am a little nervous. The guidelines for the presentation are quite vague; 10 minutes, on the topic we cover in class that day, but don't cover what the proffessor is going to say. What is the proffessor going to say? Good question, one which I wish I had the answer too. I'm going first in our class (the presentations will last all semester) so hopefully I will gain points for firstness.

Saying No

So this post may confuse all the people who are aware that my new life policy is "Try new things" (for those of you who don't know this, get with the time peeps, I'm all about trying new things... and using the word 'peeps'), but I need to learn how to say 'no'.

I especially need to learn how to say 'no' when accepting plans.

"What?" you say. But I thought that was what 'try new things' was all about. Making sure that you got out of your house more, and experienced life, because all through high school you did not do this, not that you regret this (cause I don't) but you want to see what's out there now. Like run on sentences.

'Yes' I say, this is all true, but you know what's a bigger truth? Failing. And I'm not talking classy failing, like a couple tests failing, or a course failing, where you take the hit, shake it off and realize you're a better person for it. No. I'm talking full on shit-kicked-out-of-you failing. Cry for your Mama failing (I should be clear, I do that anyway). Wonder what the fuck you did to U of T that it wanted to hit you with a lead pipe kinda failing.

Not that I am at risk of failing right now (reading Angus's mind: 'there she goes, worrying again, sigh' that's right, I can read Angus' mind, and he actually does think the word 'sigh'), cause I'm in all half courses and it's only been two weeks since they started. But still. I'm setting myself up for a pattern of doing nothing, all the time. I mean the outings have been most fun, believe me, this has been a good week, but damn the fun's got to stop somewhere.

Now I hear what you're thinking (creepy, yes?) "Seize the day Christine! You only live once!!!" (I know you people think in exclamation marks, you're all about the exclamation marks).

To that I respond: "If I don't stop partaying so much, I won't be living anywhere." Cause U of T frowns on you living in their rez after you have flunked out, and my parents firmly believe that unless you're doing something productive (i.e. school, or say, a job) you can't live in their house, which is a policy that definetly makes sense.

So yes I still believe in trying new things, and living life to it's fullest, but I also believe in passing, in getting grades I can be proud of. do I have a plan for this? A schedual for when it's cool to party and when it's not? No. But I'm working on it.

In other news, Shashi, I called your house again by accident. I should probably not just freak out and hang up, but I did.

In even more news.... fencing starts this Tuesday!!!

En garde!

three sweetest words

The three sweetest words in the English language:

Class is cancelled.


Wooo.

Excuse me while I go and be productive with this free time gift.

Good First Day

Today was my first day back to school. I spent the morning in bed. Because I could. I then procedded to organize more things and sign up for an athletics course. I also attended my 3 hour Crime and Gender class today. It was interesting, we discussed the concept of gender vs. sex. I have encountered this topic in almost all my classes, yet this proffessor managed to present in a new and well organized manner. I think this will be a good course, she seems to be a good proffessor, organized and engaging, and the material looks interesting. But really, who lectures on the first day?

I am taking fencing! I will be fencing up a storm on Tuesday and Thursday nights. I'm excited. I spent most of the afternoon trying to figure out what I should take. I almost took squash, and ballet, and pilates. I realized though that I do not have enough time to take all these classes. Fencing will be fun I hope.

I still want to join a club, but I don't think I have time. I just feel like I'm not doing enough, not enjoying enough of what my university has to offer. On the other hand, I always have a lot of fun, and I should spend more time studying this semester.

Walksafe starts up again tomorrow night, I hope to move walksafing to Monday nights, because Wednesday looks like it's going to be a long day.

I have an elaborate Pizza Pizza story to blog about. It stars Mike K. I know you're all very intrigued, but I myself am very sleepy.

Back at school

I moved back in today. I'm all unpacked and stuff, my wall calendars are updated and ready for use.

I'm just feeling a little antisocial right now. I think it's natural though, moving back into residence is probably going to be a little odd for the next couple days.

I'm looking forward to my classes but I'm just a little stressed because I haven't settled my schedual yet.

Perhaps I will update in more detail later, but I had an excellent break.

I am currently enjoying Murphy Brown (First season on DVD, courtesy of Mike K). I amfeeling a little excited about this coming semester, just because I'm ready for something new.

Oh! I might take Fencing. It's all up in the air though. I'll keep you posted.

Reminder

So often I convince myself that my life sucks. Often when this happens one of my friends inadvertedly reminds me that my life does not suck. For example I sometimes get a druken phonecall from someone and they make me laugh. Wait I think I called her. Whichever.

2006 thus far

So far 2006 has been quite good. I spent New Years at a party at Shaan's house. It was a fabulous new years. I feel I did Angus a wonderful service this New Years. I helped him to reflect on his life and what is really important to him. At least I assume that's what happened when his life flashed before his eyes while I drove him home from Shaan's house.

Sunday was spent trying to find a new course for this semester, I believe I was succesful in finding one that might interest me, something about the Renaissance or something. Monday night I hung out wtih Steph and her friend. We spent hours talking. Tonight is dinner with Shashi, Eve, and Steph.

Anyway I should return to room cleaning before heading out to dinner.